Sunday, August 31, 2008

nashieky

Yesterday:
My second time doing treatment at KS. Dah tak takut lagi dah...I'm not nervous anymore coz it's not so bad. My therapist is also very kind and friendly. And I was very happy coz I lost 4.2 kg over the past week! I certainly didn't see that coming coz I've been eating the same thing everyday and doing everything the same as the week before (the week that I lost 2 kg). On top of that, I didn't receive treatment last time coz of period, so I don't have anything to help me lost weight. BUT I managed to lose more this week! I'm so shocked. What's more shocking is the fact that my mom GAINED weight! But only 0.9 kg, not very much. But it's still weight gain.

Today:
Nothin much...going shopping for groceries and buying herbal tea. Tomorrow is fasting day, and coincidentally, I'm not working tomorrow coz of holiday! Yay! I almost forgot that tomorrow is the holiday replacement for Merdeka day, and I almost wanna go iron my work clothes! Hahahha..

Thursday, August 28, 2008

favorite male voices

Brandon Boyd
Daniel Johns
Josh Groban
Sebastian Bach
Mike Matijevic
Caleb from the Kings Of Leon (sexiest voice in rock)

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

when I drive myself my light is found...



Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before
And it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before
And it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that
When I drive myself my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

Would you choose the water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there


*I rediscovered this song myself and it touch me deeply now as this is my life. I need this song to keep me here. So here goes. Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there. I promise.

insatiable♥

I did it last night...It was awesome! Amazing...it freed me from any problems.

It has been a while.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

the dreaded

To kickstart my blogging career(for the umpteenth time), here's what I did since I stopped blogging due to busyness:

In order of occurance:

I now wear ladies shoes for the first time in my life. I found my size when I least expected it, and bought it on the spot. If you know me, you'll know that it's hard for me to find big ladies shoes. It takes a while for me to get used to the feeling of wearing bounds wrapped tightly around my foots. But now it seems normal(for someone who never wore this kinda shoes before). I still walk like a giant tomboy btw. With feminine shoes. *laughing slowly*

Work is like hell for me. I'm sorry to say that, but it is hell. I would never wanna work again if this is the real experience of working. But I still have faith. I think it's just this company...it sucks real bad. Other companies I don't know, but judging from my Mom's company, I guess there's hope. I wanna work there someday...or not. I dunno. Maybe I won't work at all? Hmm...let destiny decide.

I hate my boss by now. There's no stopping me. I hate him!!! I wanna quit!!

Yeah I just read back my last 'real' post...about my supervisor and feeling over the moon and shit. I just wanted to puke after reading that. I felt so gullible...he's not that sincere. In fact, I just think he wanted to use me to do this project. And when the got the pay, it'll go to his family and they all live happily ever after. Meanwhile, I on the other hand, is smashing my head against the wall to solve this project. And my salary? RM150 a month. Can you imagine how I feel? Do you feel what I'm feeling rite now? I think I have a very valid reason to be pissed about this.

HUH enough about work and this shitty company. It just makes me feel mad all over again, when I was supposed to be in a happy mood today.

Hmm...what else did I endure these past few weeks?

Yeah!

Me and my Mom enrolled into a slimming course in Keep Slim center! Wahh this is big news! I dunno what hit her, but suddenly one day she said that she wanted to send me to a slimming center, seeing how I don't have any time to exercise and everything. So ...Keep Slim is having a promotion at IOI Mall, and it said first session for just RM29.90. She is very interested in it and the promoter asked for both of us to enroll. My Mom is a lil bit chubby too and agreed to 'temankan' me to do the treatment. And the promoter arranged an appointment for us two. And the rest is history. It's been 1 1/2 weeks now, and last Saturday, I lost 2.3 kg. Yay! My Mom lost 2.9 kg, slightly higher than me. LOL I wanna beat my record for this week's weigh-in. On Saturday I didn't undergo the treatment as I was having my period...only my Mom did the treatment. So this week, I have to work solely on my diet to lose weight, without any help of the treatment. That means that I have to double my dieting efforts.

I wore a thong for the first time during my first session. Waaaaaa what an extremely embarrassing moment that was! Me, alone in a room with the therapist and 98% naked. I never wanna wear that thong again. Thankfully she said that next time I can bring extra panties and I don't have to wear them thongs anymore. What a relief.

So I'm 2.3 kg lighter, and that's a good start. If I keep it up, I'll be losing 40 kg by December. What an interesting thought to ponder all of the time. It makes a great motivating thought too.

So I think that's all that's happened to me. The mundane things have been edited out due to laziness, and I'm sure you don't wanna hear them.

Bye for now. I think I'm ready to blog more frequently. So see ya laters!

i'm a geek

Your result for The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test...

Pure Geek

43 % Nerd, 52% Geek, 43% Dork


For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.

A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.

A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.

You scored better than half in Geek, earning you the title of: Pure Geek.

It's not that you're a school junkie, like the nerd, and you don't really stand out in a crowd, like the dork, you just have some interests that aren't quite mainstream. Perhaps it's anime, perhaps it's computers, perhaps it's bottlecaps, perhaps it's all of those and more. Your interests take you to events and gatherings that are filled with people you find unusual and beyond-the-pale, but you don't quite consider yourself "of that crowd." Instead, you consider yourself to be fairly normal.

Which, you are.

Congratulations! You're the one on the RIGHT!

Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following:

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Professional Wrestling

Love & Sexuality

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

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Friday, August 15, 2008

What the heck, hell, fun, and shat

I've undergone many things since my last update. Sometimes when I read mu last post, I felt like I was reading a stale newspaper. What the heck? Maybe when I got the time and energy to write a whole post, I will list down all the things that happened, so nobody miss anything. Not like it mattered to people what I do every day rite? Wahahha but I love my readers very much and I thought, "If these people can stay and read my blog for more than 5 minutes, then I guess they really liked me after all"...

I love yous all...

*emo moment*

Thursday, August 14, 2008

pleasure & pain

Suddenly it hits me: I've been doing it since I was a little kid.

Never thought of it until now. Still couldn't understand it.