I'm home!

and i lost 3kg

xD

I'm currently opening up my networking exam paper. I have scribbled something on it as a result of boredom after failing to answer most of the questions.


So, what is a soulmate? Who is our soulmate? How can we know that he/she is our soulmate?


What if one dies before the other? Will that makes them not soulmates? Usually this happens, and sometimes people remarried or love again after their 'soulmate' died. So, the soulmate is the latter lover who love them till they die? Or the one with him/her the longest? What if they don't get remarried or don't love again after their beloved died? Hmm?


So, do we have to die together in order to truly become soulmates? Or is the term soulmates depend on the FEELING and not the action?



These are the thoughts, on a difficult piece of exam...please ponder...

my balmss...mmmmm~

Yay the lip balms that I ordered has arrived!!


Well, it arrived since Tuesday, but I didn't have time to go to the office and collect them. But I did today! And I'm so excited!



Sorry for the shitty pics...huhu..

But these are the lip balmiesss...yess. They're from the states...little online company called My Lip Stuff. I bought it through a lady from Lowyat.net forum who conducted a spree for the balms. I chose the flavor Mango Sorbet and Sex On The Beach...hehe. The latter is a drink, not the action, mmkay?

The mango sorbet one is so delicious! It's actually SWEET...I still can't believe how sweet it is. It's just like the real thing. When I first applied it, I can't stop licking it off and say "mmmmmmmmmm...mmmm"...lol.

The sex on the beach one is very fruity smelling, and the thing that grabbed me is that the scent reminds me of a bubblegum that I used to love so much as a kid! Brings me back to my childhood years :)))) Can't believe I said that about an alcoholic drink though!



So yeah, I'm very happy to finally receive my balms.


The only thing that bugged me is that their texture are a little too soft and greasy for my liking. I have a LipIce mentholatum balm, and it's just right, not too greasy and not too waxy. Hmm but I think I'll love these two more, because they're so yummy, and the greasiness actually made my lips shiny and glossy.


:)))


I'm so happy!

(perfect timing too...I needed a pick me up)




And I'm going home this evening!



Yay!

I felt rewarded on being so ugly yea
Oh and you're a lone shadow
I felt rewarded on being so ugly hey yeah yea

He really, really likes me.

Sad Movies

I just want to make a list of sad movies so that I can go and see when I need a cry. Got this list by searching at google and forums.

(in no particular order)



Ladder 49
Simon Birch
My Girl
Pay It Forward
The Secret Garden
Steel Magnolias - watched, funny + sad
Love Actually
Good Will Hunting
Schindler's List
Beaches
Forrest Gump
Cold Mountain
Saving Private Ryan
Contact
The Fox and the Hound
Little Women
A Walk To Remember - watched, have dvd, tearjerker
The Pianist - watched, loooong, heartbreaking
Million Dollar Baby
My Life Without Me
Awakenings
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
Dead Man Walking
Antwone Fisher
Flicka
Of Mice and Men 1992
My Left Foot
Full Metal Jacket
Remember the Titans
Radio Flyer
Four Brothers
Blow
I Am Sam
Sophie's Choice
Beyond Borders
Jersey Girl
Hooligans
Boys on the Side
The Cure 1995
The Green Mile
Sweet November
With Honors
Brian's Song
Patch Adams
The Champ
Moulin Rouge
Stepmom - watched, but forgotten already
Rent
Indecent Proposal
Fried Green Tomatoes
Hope Floats
Dead Poets Society - watched, carpe diem!
Bridge of Terabithia
The Color Purple
Old Yeller
21 Grams
Imitation of Life
What Dreams May Come
Shoot the Moon
The Lake House - watched, hbo, sweet, sad
Charlotte's Web
Butterfly Effect - watched, twisted, sad
13 Going on 30 - watched, sad at the end as it unravels
A Perfect World
The Alamo
Pursuit of Happyness
Somewhere in Time
Radio
Meet Joe Black
City of Angels
The African Queen
Fluke
My Life
Glory
Raise Your Voice
Life as a House
Shooting Dogs
Boys Don't Cry
Finding Neverland
About a Boy
Princess Bride
Grapes of Wrath
Life is Beautiful
Seven Years in Tibet
Pan's Labyrinth
John Q
Love's Enduring Promise
Joy Luck Club
Meet Joe Black
Freedom Writers
Walk the Line - watched, hbo, don't remember well
Braveheart
Brokeback Mountain
Love Story
The Mighty
Sommersby
Black Beauty
Legends of the Fall
Jack
Eight Below
PS I Love You - watched, kinda boring, teary eyed but not sobbing
Passion of the Christ
The Bridges of Madison County
50 First Dates - watched, funny, and sad
Mighty Joe Young
The Notebook - watched, but don't remember well
Mystic River
Return to Me
Dragonfly
Hotel Rwanda
One Flew Over Cuckoo's Nest - watched, Jack Nicholson, very sad ending
Graves of the Fireflies (Hotaru no haka)
Frances
ET
Far from Heaven
The Gift
Man in the Moon
Man on the Moon - I just remembered this one, watched it as a child
Untamed Heart
Requiem for a Dream - watched on tv-links, tragic

I had just watched TERMS OF ENDEARMENT. Very sad. Cried a lot. But I could cry more...masih tak puas lagi. And in the movie, there's this place again. I don't know what's that supposed to mean. Coincidence, or ........ Huh...maybe it's just coincidence. Me and him are not going to happen.





:'(

After I finish studying networking (first round), I'll go watch a sad, sad movie so I can cry my HEART out.








Damn you, heart!!! Weak...

*curling up on the floor*

I dunno why,

I feel like crying...

But tears would not come,



Coz I know that I'm happy,
but sad at the same time.

Gosh!

Please make me stop dreaming!!

I mean, I love my over-active imagination.



But not like this! This has gone too far, and I don't wanna get hurt.

tagging

Tagged by Jerm!

1. Go to your photo folder in your computer 2. Go to the 6th folder of photos 3. Go to the 6th picture in that folder 4. Put the picture on your blog and description of it. 5. Invite six friends to join the challenge. 6. Link them in your blog and let them know they have been challenged..

Well, the 6th folder of my pictures is Tori Amos' pics! Haha so I have to change the rules a lil bit. Hmm lets see, 3rd folders and 3rd picture...Jeng jeng jeng!

Haha this one is so funny! This is taken on May 2008. If I remember correctly, this is taken after I got a haircut (a very short one too! yikes!!). This is in Jusco IOI Mall, and as you can see, there's bag of rice behind me. Not much, and the shelves are almost empty, coz at the time, there's some rice shortage in Malaysia!

Hmm also, I think this was some of the first pics ever taken using my current phone. Yups.

Wow never thought this picture can have many histories!


Oh well. Ini lah gambar aku, cik Jerm! Haha..







p/s: Oh I just realized that this is my 200th post!!!!!!
Lets celebrate!!!! By comparing me, now and then!!!!

stream of conciousness ramblings

I don't know why I'm so emotional.

Maybe it's this room.

I'm so depressed when I'm in this hole.

I cannot stop feeling like this...help!



Hmm. I feel like going home this weekend...yet I know that I can't coz next week will be full of mid term exams. And I know that I won't touch my books and notes at all when I'm back at home. Strangely, I kinda miss the gym right now. I think it's the main reason I wanna go home. And of course, I wanna see my family. I don't know why I suddenly miss my mom, bro, and dad so freakin much! :((((


My body aches.


I didn't get enough sleep, yet I cannot force myself into sleeping! I did go to bed a few hours ago after washing my undies right after I reached my room. I'm strangely 'rajin' pulak today. But I only got like 3 hours of sleep. I need another.....hmm 5 hours.


I can't sleep with the lights on. My roomie is doing her work, and I dunno when she's gonna turn in. *sigh*



On another note, I tried the mascara that Awa raved about. She bought it after all! She just has to, coz coincidentally it was on discount for valentines day promotion. Hehe I think I love this one more than my Loreal Telescopic mascara. This one is called Unstoppable Curly Extension something something...I put it on and it's thick! I put on too much at first, and to make matters worst, we're in the car! Haha thank god there's tissues nearby. I blot the excess and my eyes were a mess...but I love this mascara! It's lengthening AND voluminous. I will try to put less on because its so 'rich'. But then again, I'll have to borrow it from Awa every day...haha.


I have no money to buy anything other than food right now! I think I need a sugardaddy...


And I think I need to drop outta school...to go start my business... I attend my keusahawanan (entrepreneurship) class today. And I was chatting about what business I wanna do, blablabla, not really paying attention. And then I heard the lecturer said as an example, she mentioned my dream business! I don't know why, but that makes me happy and in awe. Could she have heard me? But I'm at the back of the lecture hall!


So I think she have mind powers or something...hahaha. I will keep my business idea secret for now. Wouldn't want anybody go and steal that away from me! =)



Wow I'm smiling again!


Thank you, blog! You are very therapeutic.



Bye, I'm gonna go sleep. Please listen to this exquisite cover of Cocteau Twin's Cherry Colored Funk in the style of Charlotte Martin. With a headphone. And close your eyes and let the melody sweep through your body. This song sums up my feelings when I'm in this room.






And I'm off to go do this ---->


Sweet Dreams Everyone :)

I got only 1 hour of sleep...please pray that I don't pass out!

missing someone unpredictably

I realized...

When I made a bowl of Oats and Oligo Coco porridge...

That I missed my mom...

She likes oats so much...

She preached it to me...

But I hate oats...

Yeah, but here I am eating it...

She transferred money to me today...

After I asked by SMS...

She said, jimat2 guna duit...

It really got to me...

I've been nothing but trouble...

I buy petty things using her money...

Until I'm broke...

Yet she still give me some money...

So now I won't spend so much again...

I replied, "Thanks mak, love you"...

I think it's the first time I said it...

I can't believe she replied...

And wrote, "Love you too"...

I'm keeping myself happy with Lady GaGa.

I wonder when she's gonna come on tour here...maybe never?

Coz she's so naughty!!! But I love her!!!





So don't worry, I'll be fine...





like I always do.

Love Luxury - cherich the one you love

Why is it that movies always have LOVE in them?

I mean, Slumdog Millionaire has LOVE, North By Northwest has LOVE, even Yes Man has LOVE!

(yep those are the movies that I watched in the last 2 days)

I hate LOVE!!! Why does everyone, everything, everymusic, everymovies remind me of LOVE? Every element just shoving it in my face. It makes me sad. It makes me want it even more.

I feel so single. Alone. Maybe I'm at the point where I need that someone special in my life. I used to cherish my life as a single person. I even wanna preach it...how easy life can be if there's no one else to take care, all the jealousy and betrayal. But........I dunno why I'm going against my principles now.

Truth is, I'm not okay. I need that someone. Who ever he is. I just hope that this feeling won't lead me to bad things. Things that I'll regret later.

*emo* :'(

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE. HOPE YOU GUYS ARE HAPPY.

Midterm exam Project Management Patel sangat susahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Sebabnye, aku malas baca nota. :(

tagged with random things

Hey lets do a tag!! I've been putting it off till today...so might as well do it now.

Tagged by Jerm:

Once you've been tagged, you are required to write a note with 10 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

..........................

So, 10 things eh? Lets go!

1. I have short attention span.

In other words, I do things in 'hangat2 taik ayam' way. I tried to put my mind in something with motivations but I will get tired and left it there. Like when I wanna lose weight. Till now I'm still like this! Other people seem to pull through and actually achieve what they set up to do. But not me. I'm curious. My mom said my motivation is not strong enough and maybe I don't want it badly enough. Hmm I must try and make that a habit: Wanting something so bad that I want it to happen! But I hope my dream of becoming a rich woman will pull through and my dream of having a SUCCESSFUL business will lasts! Yeahh.

2. I find it feels good to cry once in a while.

I kinda find it funny that I love the feeling of crying! I dunno if other people like it too...Sometimes, whenever I feel like I've been happy and laughing for too long...I crave to cry. So I'll watch some sad soppy movies to cure my crying cravings! Haha kinda weird, huh? And yeah, I love soppy chick flicks :P

3. I cook!

I can cook pretty decently. All this started when my grandma stayed at my house after matriks I think. That's when my mum REALLY teach me how to cook various meals for my Atuk. My Atok don't like to eat outside foods, she's soooo picky! So I'm the maid at the time, so I cook for her. Haha but actually, since I was little I have always been interested in cooking. I used to have a maid at the time, coz my bro was a baby...at the time I always ask my maid if I could help her out in cooking. She didn't let me! But sometimes I copied her and made some scrambled eggs or roti telur (french toast I think)..OMG the memories! Ahh now I crave some roti telur! And eventually, I learned fried rice (the first time was a disaster, oily rice!), fried noodles...And now I can cook soups, curries, fried veges...regular lauks la..nothing special yet :P Ha, I can cook spegetti and pasta too!

4. I love to watch people

Yeah..when I'm sitting all alone, I love to people watch. I can observe what they do..kinda interesting. How they greet their friends, how they read a book, how they hold their bag, etc. There's so much! Sometimes when I'm in the class, I love to observe girls betul2 kan tudung or betul2 kan rambut...haha therapeutic! (wahahaha).

5. I love makeup

Haha now I think my makeup phase is starting all over again, and this time it's full blast! Thanks to Panacea81 from Youtube with her tutorials (which are very therapeutic as well lol). I have been wearing my mom's lipstick when I was 15-18...but jarang2 je...ni pun hangat2 taik ayam gak. Often I only wear it occasionally and last two weeks I was forced to throw my old eyeshadow, eyeliner, lipstick by my mom coz I seldom use them and they're old! Takut expire...But now, tup tup suka mekap balik plak daaaa! Waawhahaa.

6. I love the arts

I love visual arts, dance art, musical arts, performing arts, everything!!!! One day, I will go to art events and exhibitions every week!!! Yep that's right!!!!!! Orchestra aritu dah excited da, tp takleh lagi.........huhuhu~

7. I've never been in a relationship

I mean romantic relationship. Never..Na ahhh...

8. I love musicians that can sound good live

Yep. I just noticed that too. If they have good songs, I'll listen to them, but then I will search Youtube to find their live sessions. And if they sound good (without lip synching!) I will be sooooo happy!! You wouldn't believe it! Yes I get excited even if it's a live RECORDING...wonder how I'll react if it is a real concert??!!! The artist that I recently discovered - Lady GaGa, is also great live performer...which is quite a surprise to me coz I thought she's like Britney, blablabla aka those who sucks live. But she's really good! So I like her :P

9. I have secret ambitions.

Hahahaha..hey yeah. I'm currently taking a course in Computer Science, but I have some ambitions that have nothing to do with the field. Firstly, I wanna be a musician. I wanna be in a band, actually. But for now, I'm keeping it real. Haha. I also like the idea of playing piano in hotels or restaurants. When I was 16, I just moved to KL, and went sight seeing around hotels in that area. Then, I heard somebody play and sing Norah Jones' Don't Know Why in the hotel. I was so mesmerized! That's when I decided to wanna become a piano player in hotel...haha.

Other ambition: Event manager. Like those backstage in concerts. Yeah, but that just because I wanna get a backstage pass to see my fave artists if ever they come here..haha lame excuse!

Right now: I wanna be an entrepreneur! I wanna be rich and I wanna work for myself. Don't work for the money, let the money work for you!! Yes. But now I think I'm serious. I can't really see myself working as a programmer when I graduate...I dunno. Now I can't really study well, coz I don't think I'll be using it anymore. I always said that if the practical is that tough, the real working life must be tougher. I dunno if I can do computer related work later...huhu. But I know that I wanna be rich, and I can't be rich when I work for people.

10. I want to travel the world

This is probably the main reason for me to wanna become rich. Teeehee :) I want to travel the whole world, and I want to bring along my mom so that we can both see the real world, and not just the travel and living channel that she loves so much. We used to argue...I said I want to travel, but she said what can we do now?? We don't have money to go places...baik duk umah tgk the lovely places in tv at the comfort of our home. And then I said, that's not travelling! That's being a couch potato! Blablabla...but yeah, I want to show her that I can make it and will live my dreams of travelling. I will bring her to England, the land of cottages and rolling hills (she loves this place, always said "bestnye kalu duk kat sini!") :P

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That's all! SO I have to tag ppl...malasnyeee...hmm every one can do this if rajin.

Especially you! You reading this! You do it next!

shopping and hauls!

Wooo today I went to Midvalley!! By myself! Via komuter!!

I must say, I feel pretty brave today.

I've been wanting to do it for so long. Because nobody wanna take me to Midvalley, so I take it to myself and just go.

The downside of this experience is that I feel so lonely! To get lost in such a big place like Midvalley by myself is not a nice experience, LOL. I feel such a loner, there's no one to talk to, so sad.

But this experience taught me to be brave and not to depend so much on other ppl...and not rely so much on cars...haha public transport is shitty! I finished my shopping at around 4.30 and got on the train on 5. I didn't realize that ppl are going home from work, the train is so packed! Penyek aku dalam tu...my feet hurt so bad.

But all in all, I like it that I can finally get what I want!

My haul today:



I got oxy(haha byk jerawat la), leave in conditioner, hair spray, etc etc...haha no need to tell all lah.




My happy face LOL...I already settled down by this time and I tested out all my purchases. My hair looks straighter rite? I straightened them using the hair spray and it worked...but the lower part is so stubborn!! (pardon the sideways pic, forgot to rotate!)





I'm a happy girl!




p/s: Letssss see if you guys figured what's different about me nowadays teeeheeee!

clue: My winamp playlist now only plays *cough* Lady Gaga and *cough* Britney *cough cough**

spontaneity spoiledety

I bought a pair of gray colored contacts from my friend, Ony. Yeah I know!!! I've never ever wore contact lens before, and now I'm buying it from my friend???

Wah I think this is the most spontaneous thing that I've done!

This is the story: Ony promoted her contact lenses yesterday at lunch time. She sell the contacts she got from Indonesia. And the price is cheap: RM100 for 2 pairs...hmm at the rime she was saying "if u buy 1 RM60, but buy 2 you get RM50!" wah when she said it like that of course sounds appealing! haha! I thought only pay RM50 for the 2 pairs!

What attracted both of us was that she wore the lenses everyday! And now she actually selling it. Her eyes always looked fabulous, and we thought that she only bought it from some optical store. But she "endorsed" it...haha. So kami tertarik hati...So share duit, aku amek satu, awa amek satu.

Awa got hers yesterday itself, coz Ony happened to bring along 1 gray lens and 1 brown lens. I got mine at lunch today. Awa had already worn it to class today, so jealous! But she said it's a little uncomfortable, especially when blinking.

TO tell the truth, I'm scared to put them on! :(

I tried them as soon as I got "home"...sanggup tak makan dlu walaupun nasi goreng ikan masin campur telur dadar aku menunggu untuk dimakan..waawhaha..but the sad thing is: It's so damn hard!!!

I tried to put it in for so long...near half an hour...my eyes sore already...and then I ate my fud, and try again later. Also failed! I looked for youtube guidances, I followed their methods, and I can't seem to quit blinking. There's one time I thought I made it, and blinked, but it came right off to the ground! All dirty already! HUhuhuhu...camne nak pakai contacts ni???

Merah2 mata i tau...huhu pastu aku gi makan buah limau, kopek2 pastu terpercik satu kat mata! Malang betul nasib mataku hari ni...wawawawaaa

So I had enough for today. Maybe will try again other day. I must buy some lens solution first, yang free td dia kasi sikit jer, ni pun da abis stengah..

Rase menyesal laks beli mende ni..wawawaa da la tgh pokai...berjoli je tau...nak mintak mak duit malu plak aritu da kene bebel...huhu dilema kewangan btul la...bile aku nk jd kaye ni??

*end of rant*

quick morning ups

I'm sorry, I was meant to update last night, but yesterday was so damn busy! I went back at 6 PM and can finally reach my room at 7!! I took a bus, and I didn't know that there would be traffic jam at around that time...so many ppl are going back from work, I guess. So, waiting for the bus took around 15 mins and journey took 15 mins. And then I went to buy dinner, have to wait 30 mins.

Haihh...da la penat giler...kpale pun da sakit...

So that night, I don't have any brain power left to do my assignment and just printed a bunch of notes...and watching makeup vids on YT...huhu...

OMG I just checked maybank2u and it said my balance is just over 100 bucks!! !!! Waaa what have I done to myself??????

Who's gonna support my growing addictionssss?? I need money!!!

Hai...I'm at the lab now...have lab for networking at 2 - 4PM, and then lab for artificial intelligence at 4 - 6PM!!! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa