Thursday, April 30, 2009

Exams suck!!!! HATE!!!


I ponder about many things during the exam 2 hours ago.


How did I chose this course in the first place? What will I do if I fail? Will anybody give me a job? What will I say to sell myself during an interview so as to make up for my grades? Should I go and work retail while repeating subjects? Should I just focus on jobs that require minimum brain capacity? Would I be able to answer the paper if I studied hard from the beginning? Why did the stupid university arrange the course plan with hard subjects on the final semester along with thesis?



I feel like such a failure.


I don't wanna keep repeating that to myself. But somehow I can't help it.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I'm soon to be a proud owner of orange myvi! Yay!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Well well, guess what I just discovered? My story that I talked about that I posted online! Things come to me when I'm not looking. I was so shocked and relieved to see that it is still there. It was FICTIONPRESS! And my pen name is 'psychedelic breeze'. I even got 3 nice reviews...hehe I'm so happy :))



Actually I was lurking around FANFICTION.NET and reading a few stories. I registered so I can join in the fun. Then I decided to google more sites like that. So I googles 'fiction'. I clicked FICTIONPRESS. And I try to login. And I passed!!! What a shocker, coz you see, I don't even remember that I'm registered to the site. Surely enough, when I clicked my profile, my story is still there, and my name is still 'psychedelic breeze'. Yessss.




If you guys care to check it out? Thanks :)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Watched the pilot of True Blood! It is a good show! Better than Twilight! But it's too early to judge. I am downloading S01E02 now. I can't wait to see what happened to Sookie!


I am aware of this show coz I've heard about it around the net. Never pay any attention to it, until I saw advertisement on paper or tv (can't remember), that HBO or cinemax asia will air it in Astro. Haha. But then I researched and they said it's NSFW, and it has an R rating. So fo sho Astro (Malaysian gov) will censor the shit out of it. What's the point, right? So I decided to download the pilot to see if it's any good.


One of my impulsive downloads. Along with Sleeping Beauty. Don't laugh!



So this show is very good in my opinion. I love the pilot so much. I love how Sookie can read minds. Coz that's what I secretly wanted :)



Sidenote:

Today was my first day of final exams. Artificial Intelligence. Hard! But doable. In my way.
Currently I feel so inspired to write. I haven't done creative writing for a long long time. The last time was when I was in form 5. I was very active then, coz my English teacher gave essay homework every week. And that is where I know I can write decent stories. I wanna try and do it again. I actually have put online one of my stories, but I can't remember the site, for the life of me! Ugh what is the site's name? I only remember my username psychedelic_breeze...I googled it and it's hopeless. Maybe the site has shut down. Too bad.



So, why now? I hate myself sometimes. I seem to enjoy killing myself. I should be studying! This is so hard.

Monday, April 20, 2009

IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN TWILIGHT, AND YOU DON'T WANT SPOILERS, STOP NOW


Discovered that Robert Pattinson is musical. Weeeeee! That's so cool! And I discovered that the soulful and painfully beautiful song during the flashback scenes after bella fell unconscious and before she opened her eyes in the hospital was his song, and sang by him!!! I felt like passing out from excitement over this new little info! P/s: I'm not a fangirl teenybopper. But I'm glad that he got other talent other than making girls scream and faint.


I like his voice a lot. This is my kinda thing. People commented that he sings like a drunk. They can't understand what he's singing about, and then go on about how he suck at being a musician. But I like drunk singing! Look at my other fav musicians; Bob Dylan, Joni Mitchell, TORI AMOS, Elizabeth Fraser, etc. They all sing vaguely. And that's the beautiful thing. They are using their voices as an instrument itself. The words aren't necessary. Sometimes, I don't know if it's just me, I love songs like that more because I can feel the meaning of the song just by listening to the molody and the voice. Who needs lyrics? Who needs lyrics that makes sense if you can figure out everything just by the raw emotion in the voice. You guys should practice this by listening to Cocteau Twins. All their songs are undecipherable lyrically. But just listen...that's what music is all about! P/s: Cocteau Twins's lead singer is Elizabeth Fraser and I love her to bits!



So, I love that Rob is into music. He should go and make an album. I'd totally buy it! (or download it lol shhh don't tell him!).




TWILIGHT REVIEW AHEAD! spoilers!

And I realized that I'm not really swooning over Rob. I'm quite surprised too. Coz all girls go craaaazy over him. But not me. I think it's a good thing...hehe. I just admire him for his talent. Though I must admit that he's not that good as Edward. He's a little too forced and unnatural. I somehow blame it on the director, though. I feel that she didn't really coach them on how to act on the characters. Kristen Stewart was AWFUL! She made Bella seemed like she has this one-track personality, while the real Bella has much more sides of her. Ugh I'm just disappointed. The chemistry between them is so awkward, and that is because the scenes were rushed. The director or screenwriter should've put more scenes where they shared meaningful conversations and the getting to know each other phase. In the book, they were always asking questions to each other, and their relationship develops. And their relationship was FUN! Not always somber and gloomy :(


With that said, the movie was just OK, really need to step it up a notch by the next movie coming out in 2011. Really need to improve! Sometimes I feel like I wanna be the director! I'll go next to the set of New Moon, and during breaks I will coax the actors to go to my set and re-act the Twilight movie! And I will shoot it in my way! And I have this brilliant conversation with my bro the other day, he said wow that can be a parody movie. I said, well, the real movie itself is comparable to a parody movie, so what should we call this?? He said, it's a parody of a parody, so its neutralizes and makes my movie the actual Twilight movie! How awesome! (im rambling, hope you can understand). Hmm, not sure if the cast will agree to it. I think I'll spike their drink with some substance that'll make them obey to my commands! Muahahahhhaha!



But seriously, I have great vision on how I wanna direct this movie. I'll make a great director. Please let this new director be good! And please send all the cast to an acting school! They are godawful! Kristen is so beautiful, but she can't act. Huhu I love you Kristen~ Please learn more, kay?



Parts of the movie that I like: The first kissing scene in her bedroom. I seriously can't take my eyes off the screen. I was biting my fingers and not blinking, my eyes fixed on the scene. Silence. My bro too are silent. It was so hot, I wish she was me. Oh lord! For the first time, they are brilliant! I can't get over how amazing that kiss was. When he pulled away from the kiss and hit the wall, all I can say is WOW. Intense stuff.

Next, the baseball scene. The visuals was AMAZING. I love how Alice pitch the ball with such beauty and grace! The speed, wow. Everything is perfect. Until the 3 evil vampires some along. Bitches! haha

Lastly, the fighting scene, Bella got tossed around. James breaking her leg was painful to watch! I just wanna scream "Let her go, bitch!". And when she got glass in her arm, and she yanked it out - OUCH! When Edward comes to the rescue. When he bites James and a chunk of flesh comes out! yay! I especially loved when they discovered that Bella has the venom inside her, and she writhed in pain. And Edward has to suck to get the venom out and couldn't stop...that scene was sad coz I know how Edward feels and it's hard for him. The montage I said earlier that has the Let Me Sign song by Rob...luv luv luv. But that's all. The hospital scene was awkward again.



That's all. Review OVER.



I bought New Moon and Eclipse on Sunday. I can't read now, sadly. Exam spans across 3 weeks. *sigh*


My bro is trying to read Twilight. Hope he got through it. It was so hard for me to finish that thick book. The books get thicker as you go along. Saw the thickness of Breaking Dawn and I was like OH MY GOD! You gotta be kidding me. Sometimes I feel like Stephenie Meyer was rambling.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Friday 17 April - Watched Twilight with bro. Watched again in surround sound at midnight.


Saturday 18 April Midnight - Finished the Twilight book. Finally!



Now I hate the movie for leaving out LOTS of important scenes and changing 99% of what it should be. Damn you Catherine Hardwicke!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Ugh.


I'm giving up.


Just gonna go what I can. Don't wanna think about it anymore. I don't care.


The more I think about it, the crazier I'll become.


That's it. It's not like I wanna be the top software engineer or something.


Life ahead of me is gonna be hard. But I will keep trying and pull myself through.


I know it, as that's what I do best: Getting out of trouble unscathed.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Song of the night. Suddenly I'm addicted to this song. It's not that it's my first time hearing it. Listened to it million times already in the past. But this particular night, I'm feeling this song. I feel like screaming. But I can't, I have roommate sleeping beside me.

I swear I'm gonna just see the fuckin movie already! I can't finish the book. To hell with that!


Decode:


How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time

Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own
(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own
(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
I think I know
I think I know

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

Monday, April 13, 2009

Hia everyone.

Yesterday I went back to gym after nearly 2 months (!!). Feels so great. Sweated a lot. And now I am sore all over. I thought the soreness is a result of bad sleeping posish, but yeah it's the workout that caused these soreness.

After that, went to the new wing of IOI Mall for the first time. A few shops opened, a lot of them are not yet opened though. Lots of clothings shop. It has Daiso! OMG that RM5 shop everyone is talking about. Heard they even sell cosmetics at RM5 each. Excited, but we didn't go into it. Next we went to FOS. They're having promo now. I bought 2 tops...they surprisingly has big women clothes. Not much though. But I got a cute top and a cute tank top for Rm20! Bro bought 4 tshirts.

We went to MACY's. OMG they have the cutest and awesomest curtains! I like almost all of them. Seriously, if I am rich I'll buy all of them.


All those shopping made us miss the laundry, we hanged the laundry on the lines before going out, thinking it will be shiny all day. By the looks of the clouds that morning, it was promising. But as we went to the mall door, we realized that it had rained very heavily! To my mom's horror! She hates it when she can't save the clothes in time. We went home and sure enough, the clothes were drenched. Huhu. Including my clothes to be brought back to hostel. So I had to pack the wet clothes back to my hostel and dry them in my room. I took em out this morning. The sun is barely out. Now it's raining again. Ugh.

I better start doing my work. I don't know if I can juggle between completing my thesis AND studying for finals. Crazy time!

Monday, April 06, 2009

Be the Edward to my Bella
Do you think you're better off alone?



NO
I don't think.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Went mini shopping today. Bought some makeup, body wash, moisturizer, cheap clothes. The shirts and blouses I bought was not only cheap, but available in my size as well! It almost too good to be true. Coz most of the time, clothes on sale don't fit me and are all small ass. I'm glad and very happy to find great bargain. And for the first time ever, actually fits me.


....and maybe I'll wear this one to cybernite. Instead of the one bought at ms read 2 weeks ago!


Great time spent with my bestie. Yay!


:3

Friday, April 03, 2009

I say 'mommy' a lot these days.
I dream too much these days.