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Omigod! Wheere have I been?!?! What happened to me...What's whong with me!?

I broke my promise :'(

Sorry bloggie....

This is how it goes baby...

Hey I had just finished off the Stephanie Plum book I read since last week. Last night, I said, what the hell, I wanna finish this book tonight!!! So I did. And I felt very happy! Muahahahaha! That book is crazy funny! Actually it is a series. I read number 7 already, 7 Up...The book I'm finished reading yesterday is number 6, Hot Six. And I think I'm gonna go buy or borrow others...earlier books and latest ones! I'm a fan! Crazy funny I tell you. You guys should read it too.

I'm no good at reviewing things...hahaha...

Suddenly I can't stay in this room,
You'll never sway, and I have nothing left that I can think of to say.
What do you want me to think of my thought?
Bear it in mind, if I cannot believe in me who will I then be?

And so I'll run but not too far, in case you chase me ooohhh...
But this is how it goes, baby.
I'll get angry at your words and I'll go home
And you won't call after me 'cos I'll be back before you know, you know...

So give me a tooth full of that smile,
and know-it-all eyes you show me
just to prove that you don't need to lose it.
You tell me I'm your fortress of desire
but is it a crime for me to say my own view
and want then not to fear you?

And so I'll run but not too far, in case you chase me...ooohh
But this is how it goes, baby,
I'll get angry at your words and I'll go home
then you won't call after me 'cos I'll be back before you know,
you know, yeah I'll be back before you know...

La di da di day...la di da di day doo...
And so I'll run but not too far...

'Cos this is how it goes, baby,
I'll get angry at your words and I'll go home...yeah
then you won't call after me,
'cos I'll be back before you know, you know...

yeah, I'll be back before you know...
and so I'll run but not too far...

fucking maggot idiot

I received an sms from my project leader last night, confronting me about my inability to come to ANOTHER meeting today at 1 pm.

Well, for one thing, nobody has ever kacau me at a Sunday, okay?! It's my time with my family, dammit, I still need to go home to relieve me from all these stress that you've given me. You can call me whatever you want, I don't mind. I still want and like to go home on weekends to see my family. I won't wanna stare at the same 4 walls like you do!

And then, you confront me, saying things like "Nasha, u better tell me early on if you don't like my way of 'leading' (lol)...i can tolerate ur nonsense rite now just becoz you gave coorperation..but i'm not that eager to be ur boss and edit all your work..." <---something like that.

I don't quote it as a whole coz I seems to have deleted it (oopsie!lol)...but that sms is a kick in the stomach...with spikey shoes. It hurts. It hurts my dignity. I would've wanna reply it back with retort, but I didn't. If I'm high or drunk, I would. But I'm alive and not sleeping at that time....and I thought what's the point? If I did, things will not be the same again between us. If she were to be a stranger to me, it won't be too awkward. But she's within my close classmates. I think I won't be as hurt and not to mention guilty, if I was asleep. I won't give a damn about what you said, MT. But I was up till 3 am.

My reply would be like this (if I don't give a damn):

Firstly, who asks you to edit all the works? This is supposed to be a group project. You're supposed to delegate the stuff to do, and we'll do it ourself. And then get together to combine our works. Not organizing meetings every single fucking day!!!

You know that at the beginning we're all synonimous in making you the project leader. That is simply because you're that bossy. That's the only thing. We know it won't work with any other guys. And, you know what? If you're not the boos oso, you will still be bossy. I just can tell that! So why not just give it to you?

But by smsing me in the middle of the night, telling me off is plain ridiculous, man! I stick by you to do this fucking pain in the ass project, and this is the first time I miss anything! And then you did it...I lost my cool man. Aku memang dah lame bengang ngan ko la MT. I know you're tired, but I think you're mostly tired because of your tendency to be a perfectionist. You worry so much about stupid things! I know you realized that other groups are having fun and still cool, when you thought you're going to die from exhaustion. They just did whatever is required in the project! They don't overthink, and keep on changing things! Even in past years thesis that we looked together, the requirement and design are so simple and some even had some mistakes and inconsistencies. but Still they got an A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A fucking AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! Why is that? Because the final product is ace! You said that yourself. Can't you remember?

I tell you lah, MT, if you fuss so much, the work won't get done at all. Coz you will keep on changing things and we will get a C or something. So don't blow this la. I'm fed up with you most of the times. I get sour faced. I don't wanna be, but I can't help it. You're a pain in the butt. Sometimes I just wanna run a 100 metres race away from you and get onto a bus. Everything that I do is wrong to you. You asked for opinions from me, but you argue with me. Counteract the things that I suggested. Why did you wanna ask my opinion in the first place? If you're so right, just do it on your own la. Or don't ask people for what they think. Since, what you think is more important.

OK lah...I'm drained. Thanks readers and friends who read this till the end. Sorry to bore you with rants. :( I'm so pissed rite now. Ok my bro wants to use the pc...

they weren't there

I will stay here for today...and study for tomorrow's social science exam. And after that exam, mum will pick me up to go home...

miaaaaaawwwwww!

life is hard, dahhlinn

Yesterday I couldn't post an entry, coz I was having a project meeting from hell from 2 till 6, and at night I'm lazy and tired to go down to CC.

So forgive me darling...:(

I can't go home this weekend, coz on Saturday I'm having a mid term test at the hall. But I still wanna go home and fetch my beloved guitar, coz I wanna try out the tuner and the capo. And most importantly, I wanna start playing again. The calluses that I've built up on my fingers are practically gone. Gone. My fingertips are soft again. I don't want that to happen, but that's what you get for stopping the guitar playing flow. My friend, G, is experiencing the same thing. I touched her fingertips and it's becoming soft too. Hard calluses on your left hand's fingertips are key to playing guitar effectively! And now I cringe when I try to play the guitar at music class, coz it hurts. :'(

Hmm...maybe after the test, at Saturday noon, I will ask my mum to fetch me at the hall. I wanna play my goddamn guitar!!!!!!!!! Huh..........

so quick!

hi...quick update here.

I know I created the term guitarpianist for my blog. But I didn't think it was unique or strange. But I googled that term "guitarpianist", and then my blog is the first result. I feel so damn good about that.

Bye!

of music and musings

Haishh...I wanted to update you this morning at fac's computer lab, but the connection was too damn slow. The blogger main page also cannot open wan.

But now I'm here, at the cyber cafe in college, at night. I'm hungry too ;) After this, I'll buy me some dinner...yum.

On other note, it suddenly occured to me last night while I immersed myself with Missy Higgins' songs.....That she's a fricken GUITARPIANIST! Hahahahah it's totally obvious from all the youtube videos...but I fricken overlooked it! And now, I totally will make her my official guitarpianist idol. Muahahhahaaaaaa! ~^o^~

Huuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

On yet another side note, today I went to Metro Kajang ALONE for teh first time. And not to mention, riding the Rapid bus outside UKM for the first time. LOL I'm fucking pathetic, aren't I? It's been 2 and half years in UKM and it's my first outing. I feel like I'm seeing the world for the first time... :) But kinda boring lah coz no one to talk to. I bought a guitar tuner (coz I think I might be tone-deaf) and a capo (to make it easier for me to play songs...it seems lotsa my favorite songs use the capo). And I bought a lip gloss (suddenly I wanna be fabulous...heh), a hair styling jelly (to tame my extremely wavy hair) and a normal pantene syampoo (my hairdresser said that anti-dandruff syampoo is not good for everyday use, have to alternate between normal one). The styling jelly is pretty cool, coz I think it does what it claims to do on the bottle. It smoothens and making it appear straighter. I tried it and it works! Thank God! And then I bought an ice-cream! Yayyyy it's been so long since I ate one. All in all, I'm satisfied of what I've done today and will definitely do it again. xP


Note to self: "See, it's not that scary isn't it? You should go out more often!"


So now...the proof of the guitarpianist-ness of Missy! Muahahahaha! I wanna be just like her.


On the guitar...



And on the piano...or if I usually say it, the pinano...