I'm planning my next long post. It's been a while since I wrote something worth reading. :)


The topic will be about my future plans and my dreams. I finally have something to look forward to. It sucks when you got no plans for the future and just take whatever that comes your way. I've been stuck in that situation for as long as I can remember. But now, I feel like I know what I really wanna do. And that gave me a new found appreciation of life. I feel like I actually know what I'm going to do. That put things into perspective and I feel that I'm not in the dark anymore.


But yeah, I still have doubts. Who doesn't? Especially when people around you have doubts about it. And I'm not gonna lie; they got me thinking. I hate when that happens.One day, you're so sure of yourself, the next day, someone else ruins it by criticizing and making judgments.


But all that boils down to me. What I wanna do. What do I wanna do with my life?? Nothing is impossible, you know.


Nothing is impossible. =)

I'm staying up tonight. Woop woop!

Whoa!!! Cybernite's location has changed and price goes down from RM50 to RM5!!!! Nooooooooooo.


Location: Initially Equatorial Hotel Bangi, now Faculty's carpark (WTF!!!)

Food: Initially buffet, now barbeque (hmm I can deal with it)

Theme: Initally corporate, now santai n hawaii?? (what, we have to wear hula hula skirt and dance?)


All this happened because 99% of final year students refused to pay RM50 dollars for an annual dinner. Heck it's not even ANNUAL, its once in a student's life!!! RM 50 is not so expensive la people! Not like you have to pay every year! We prolly won't see each other again after this, so why not spend some to hang out and enjoy? In a hotel! Not in a parking lot!


Huh wait till I tell her about it. She will be pissed! Huhu nak hotel gaks! Tak kire!!

I rejected the job and told him about it. I was afraid he'll get pissed. But I had just read the reply and he's okay with it! I'm so relieved. Now I'm free and I'm glad that I can have a clear head.

I hate making decisions.


Ade ke die suh aku gi office die?? Giler la orang ni.



Macam dah nak regret dah wat keputusan utk accept the job!


Dah la. Lpas ni kalau die byk songeh lagi, aku reject je job offer die tu. Bukan aku nak sgt pun job tu. huh patutnye aku dah serik...lagi nak consider lagi. Benci kat diri sendiri. Kalau Awa dgr ni, mesti dia marah giler.


Aku terlampau geram sampai kena tulis dlm bahasa melayu dah ni! Takleh cakap speaking lagi ni! Grrrrrrrrr! Aku tak akan jejak kaki lagi ke opis tu. Neverrrr!

Muzammil, my former 'boss' emailed me. Huhu and as always, it regards ONE thing: Continue working on JPS system.


:'(


Now, if he asked me to a few weeks or months ago (he did, actually), I would have said NO easily and never regret it. But now, I'm poor. I'm so poor. So I surprised myself when I suddenly and seriously think about it. I'm actually considering his offer!



I want some money and this is my chance. But at the same time, I'm afraid I can't cope. What with my studies, assignments and THESIS?!! I haven't even touch my thesis...I haven't even design the interface for my system. Can I handle one more job? This decision is hard. I wanna ask somebody else's opinion. I miscalled my mom, but she never call back.



:'(

Dear Nasha,

Good afternoon. This is to inform you that ARZ will continue to add more dams (Bekok, Sembrong, Macap & Labong) for the current application.

ARZ Services is pleased to offer you as system analyst cum programmer based on your knowledge, skills and experience during your internship here. For more info you can contact me at 012-xxxxxxx or email.

We would also appreciate a response if you decline to this offer.

Thank you very much,

Regards,

Muzammil

Why is it so hard? Can someone out there help me?

I'm in love with ambient tracks. just shut up and let the music do its magic.

My desk is attacked by ants! That's what you get when you didn't wash the mug before going home for the weekend. Tsk tsk.

Went shopping for cybernite dinner outfit. Bought a skirt, blouse, clutch bag and necklace. I'm so happy!


p/s: Kamon kawan2, jom la pegi cybernite dinner. Lepas ni da takleh nak berkumpul enjoy2 lagi dah. Sekali ni jer kitorang boleh kumpul ramai2, lupakan kejap masalah tesis ke asignment ke. Huhu jom laaaa... :(

Oh yeah. Yesterday someone moved in my room. I got a roomate now, and it's not Awa. Huhuhuhuuuuuuuu.


My new roomie said she'll only stay for a week and then she's out. She's already married, and at the moment, her husband is out of town for business. She felt alone in her house, so she decided to stay here for a week.


I must say that I feel relieved that she's only here for a week. I've just gotten used to having the whole place to myself.

Turns out my mom took 3 days off just to relax and go visit my grandma. No biggie. That's why I was surprised about the supposed "vacation" my brother told me. She would never go on a vacation. Sheeesh.

I'm wondering why. Why is this? Is there something wrong? I can't seem to think about anything else except WHY.

I just read my old blog posts. And OMG was I miserable all the time or what?? I was such a smart-ass! Looking back. I never knew I was this depressive. In some ways, even poetic.

:)


Below is a post that brings back the memories of college. Written 3+ years ago :

I so fucking hate my college right now. As you know (or don't know) my place is blessed with a whole lot of rain and eventually floods. But the lucky thing is my college is placed at a slightly higher ground, so it's fine and dandy in here. Well, seems like there's nothing that I could complain about, right?

Nah. The problem is, inside the college is dry, but all around it is flooded. That means, people from outside couldn't get in here. And that meands that we all are gonna starve coz there's no transportation whatsoever to deliver the goods here. Man, you should look at the cafeteria. There's not even a crust of bread left. And I never knew that the students here are like beasts when it comes to food. Yesterday, they're behaving like some hungry predators, cooking their own stuff in the cafeteria. Even the cafe's cook can't do anything about it. How possibly can he ward off all those hungry intruders? Haha.

Well, I'm pretty amazed and at the same time scared at the sight. You know, our college looked like an island amidst all the flooding area around it. As for now, I'm hungry as shit. Lets pray for the arrival of all the delicious food for tomorrow so I won't suffer this starvation again. Amin.

And, as if all that isn't enough, I had just heard that they'll be some water shortage due to the 'destruction' of a nearby water dam. What?! As if what happened isn't bad enough, then this? I hope this is not true, if not I can't take a bath, and if I don't shower, I can't possibly go to class, and I don't go to class, my mum is gonna kill me and I'm dead meat. Arrrrrrrrrrgghhh! Why must this happen now? I wanna go home. I wanna go home!

I think I'm gonna cry. Isk...iskk.

This morning, I tagged along with my mom and brother to his school to attend the parent teacher meeting. My brother's friend said, who is that lady in blue scarf sitting beside your mom? The mom he's talking about was me, and the lady in scarf was my mom, lolz :D


Every body totally thought I was one of the parents.


I FEEL like a parent :D


was bored as hell though. why the hell did i even go :-/


Went shopping afterward, ate at Secret Recipe, bought a tv off the shelves, literally. They said if we purchase a tv, it will be delivered on Monday because they need to fetch from the factory. But mom said, we need a tv NOW! Haha and we took the one off the display :D


So now we are enjoying the new telly! It's gorgeous.


Hmm...what else...


I cooked some pasta for dinner. Not as good as mom's. The gravy was too runny, so it didn't efficiently coat the pasta. The taste was okay.


I'm just gonna hang around the nets for a while, who knows some person will online themselves and I can chat some with em. Need to wake up early tomorrow too, so I can't really stay too late. If we can rise early, we might go brekkie at McD :P

I will go home tomorrow!!! Still no tv though, but wth, I just wanna get out of this room.





I heard mom took 3 days off work next week to go on vacation?!





I wanna go!






(next week is school holiday) (but not me, coz I'm in university *cry*)




Argh I don't care. I will join them too, they can't go have fun without me! No fair!





I will go. Even if that means I have to skip some classes.






But of course, knowing mom, she'll want to talk and discuss it over first. Oh wellp...we'll see.




Bye. Gotta go wash my face and hit the sack. Weeeee~

these r the thoughts, that go through my head, in my backyard on, a sunday afternoon...(not really)

I'm wondering...


All those internet millionaires, ebay millionaires. What did they sell on the net and on ebay that made them rich as hell? I really need to know. Are their products that good, causing people to give money straight to their bank account? I wanna know what they sold!



Anybody knows?





ps: this thought was provoked by my book How to be an Ebay Millionaire by Stuart Tan (i think). i abandoned that book due to lack of time and lack of interest lately.

Gosh. I frown too much. How to make it stop?

When I play music at home, I pretend I'm on stage. When I'm on stage, I pretend I'm at home.

-John Mayer

nice thought

I'm officially a StumbleUpon addict.

My room mate is gone. She moved out coz she said Zaba's rent is so expensive compared to a rent house. So in a way, I like it coz I can have more privacy. But I felt more lonely in this room all alone. Sure, I barely even talk to her, but it was kinda comforting knowing that you have someone else in the room with you.


Hmm well, I just have to look at the bright side. This room is MINE! Muahahhahaha!






Side note: I will probably ask Awa to move in with me. She has no room mate. Wonder if we live together will it affect our friendship?

Here's something random I discovered today: Turns out I've been using my Yahoo account since I first discover the internet, at 13 years old. Yup. Same name, same password, all the same. I'm almost ashamed that the name is still britney. Ugh. But I can't seem to open a different Yahoo account. Maybe there's so many memories...hehe especially the password...

Hahaha so funny!

Check this out!!!


http://www.list.co.uk/article/16421-kutiman-thru-you/


This guy has been collecting and mixing an album entirely from samples of YouTube videos! At first I was skeptical, but it blew me away! The end results are so good, I just wanna download it off somewhere. I don't know if the album is downloadable or not. Since Youtube is a public domain, I don't think he can make profit out of the samples from other youtubers.


Please, please check it out! You will be amazed :))))

experiment

The moment I opened my palette, I played with it instantly...hehe. The colors are amazing!


I dunno why I automatically tried the blue colors on my lids. I really like it! The pictures are not very good, you can't really see the colors...(I'm wearing blue! See if you can tell).


Cam-whoring time!!













:P

78 palette!!!!

=

Design and Analysis of Algorithm exam finally over at 10PM. Midterms are officially over and I'm officially effed. Thank goodness it was only mid term exams. I will definitely try harder next time (FINALS yo!).


This is my smiley face right after I reached my room and talked to mom on the phone. *smile*







WTF?? You are seeing double! Weeeee~

boring day. gonna go buy some food now.

Prolog lab got cancelled AGAIN!!!

Last minute AGAIN!!!


I fuckin hate prolog so much. I waited. And I hate waiting. Thank God I went and see the notice outside the prolog lab. If I didn't, I'd still be waiting like a fool.



When will this all end?? I wish I could fast forward till May. *sigh*

I'm back in my room!

Bye.

The tv at home is broken. Not that I NEED a tv or something, but life at home isn't the same without one. 1. It gets very quiet...2. If I go and sit on the couch, all I can do is stare blankly like a crazy bitch...3. I feel that the purpose of coming home is defeated; where else can I watch tv on a comfy couch???


Not that I need tv that much, but still...



I've been eating like crazy this past few days, I knew I'd be better off at the hostel :) Friday night, we went to dinner at TWO places! The first place sucks so much, bad service and bad food (but we ate it nonetheless!). So, mommy wanted steamed fish and they said they ran outta fish...So papa said we can go to other place after we finish eating. And we went to a second place, which is MUCH better than the first one. Ordered so many, including the steamed fish, grilled ray, etc~~ I felt like bursting. Mom said "there goes my diet" and I agree. BUT, it's not every day we get to eat that much, right? So I said lets enjoy! (and starve for a week lol).



Wow, this is a first, just now there's a guy on okcupid who asked me if I wanna roleplay with him. He sounded so desperate...begging me to do it with him. I'm sorry dear, but I'll only do that thing with someone that I care about :)



So that's all my weekend updates...I know today is not gonna be an eventful day anyway. Have a nice weekend everybody! :)