i have a bad week

Last week is a very bad week for me. *cries*

List of bad things that devastated me:
1. On Monday, I was at home still. Going back to UKM the next morning at 6.50am due to me following along my kid bro to school and went back on the way. So I have myself a coffee binge Monday night to make me not sleep at all till morning. I haven't studied, I haven't searched the internet for the things I want to search. So I occupied myself with internet and coffee the whole night. I downed nearly 10 mugs(!!!) of coffee. So what's the problem? The morning after, I was bloated as hell! I'm tired and had a headache and bloated. I didn't know too much coffee will make me so sick and miserable! And an hour after arriving at my college, I had to go to Lecture Hall to go see my HCI lecturer who is very bothersome. Leceh betul la. Going there, I thought it would be like at least an hour, but it's barely half hour! I walked myself there, all bloated and sick and just...argh! My sweat from the walk is not even dried yet and I have to drag myself back to my room. Gah!!

2. Tuesday night. I went down to the college cafe to surf the internet since the wireless connection is limited in my room. The only place for wireless is now at the cafe. My bloatingness has subsided due to me crashing on my bed immediately after coming back from lecture up till 6 in the evening. I checked singsnap and appalled by all the condolences on Rudy Savingdaworld page. Why? Then I learned that...he passed away that morning. Shock-ness!!! Rudy is like my only cyberspace friend these days and he's the one who introduced me to skypecasts, paltalk and singsnap. He's truly a great friend...he supported me and cheered me up when I'm down. I can't believe he's gone! He's 47 ear old and only 5 days away to 48 when he died. Al-Fatihah...may us pray that Allah blessed his soul with all the love. I was very sad at first, but now I'm in the "surrendering" phase...I accept everything that God did. Here's a link to his singing page: Savingdaworld page

And God, did he love to sing! He used to sang everyday on the feature page sometimes up to 10 or more songs. God bless you, Uncle Rudy...rest in peace. I love you.

3. I got a sore throat and soon fever starting Wednesday. I don't know why...it came very suddenly. Maybe my defenses were down from that Tuesday, and then upon much crying from Rudy's death I got a sore-throat. I'm very special. Other people have fever with a cold, but I got fever with sore-throat every time. So suffered till now...but now the sore throat and fever has subsided but left me with coughing with phlegm(yucky yuck!).

4. On the first day of my exam...which is on Thursday, it was for Software Engineering. Which is hard as hell!! Gosh the question was soo many! I didn't know! I'm gonna flunk this bad. And to add salt to injury, my money was stolen during the exam. I left my purse in my bag(big mistake)...and....fuck! I don't even wanna talk about it anymore. I just hope that the thief will get diarrhea eating from my hard earned money. Amen.


That's all for last week. I can only hope that it will be the worst week I'll have in the my life. Although very unlikely coz life will just get tougher. I just felt like last week was just dragging its foot along the road. But I'll look forward to experiencing weeks ahead.

In loving memories of Uncle Rudy... :'(

she was a january girl...SHYNESS?? wtf??

Well lately I have been wondering and discovering more about myself and others. There's so much more to me than meets the eye. So I stumbled upon the birth months kinda lists...most of them are incorrect. But this one is ace. Try and figure yourself!

JANUARY=SHYNESS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things.
Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hot. Secretive.
Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.
Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned aboutpeople's feelings.
Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving.
Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp.
Judges people through observations. Hardworking.
No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone.
Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends.
Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved.
Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

The bolds are what I am. This kinda lists is not always true, but this one is soooo close. This one almost hit me in the head! So if you wanna know something about me, you can read the bolded ones.

I agree on most characteristics, but the most complicated but correct one is "wait for friends, never looks for friends." That is totally true and even I don't realize it until I analyze this list and myself. It's true. All my life, I like to just sit back and relax. Including friendship. I look at my friends, and I don't remember taking the time to introduce myself properly, saying "Hello, what's your name? Can I be your friend?" No. Never! Haha that's quite a revelation. Most of my friendships are accidental...If we clicked, we get along. If we don't, well, I just ignored em, saying hi once in a while. That's how I roll. So now you know. I don't search for friends. I just let em come naturally.


Take a look at other months! -->


FEBRUARY=SMARTS
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive.
sexiest out of everyone. Areal speed demon.
Has more than one best friend. Temperamental.
Quiet, shy and humble. Honestand loyal. Determined to reach goals.
Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness.
Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does nots how it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Lovesmaking friends but rarely shows it.
Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes.
Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on theinside not outside.
Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy.
Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.
Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way!
Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn inthe most way possible!
Loves to getnoticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices.
Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others.
Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker!
Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments!
A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
The best in bed out of MFE these months!!
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottleup feelings.
Observant and assesses others.

APRIL=THUG
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated.
Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention.
Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Stand point.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled.
Systematic (leftbrain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance.
Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination.
Good physical. Weakbreathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling.
Dislike being at home. Restless. having manychildren.
Hardworking. High spirited.

MAY=LOVER
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn.
Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident.
Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory.
Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information.
Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh.
Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality.
Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music,leisure and travelling.
Systematic. Hot but hasbrains.

JUNE=SEXY
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center.
Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly.
Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Not easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions.
Unpredictable. Understanding.
Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality.
Secretive.Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music,leisure and travelling.
Systematic. Hot but hasbrains.

JULY=ATTITUDE
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention.
no self control. kindhearted. self confident. loud and boisterous.
VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to.
has an "everything's peachy" attitude.
likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted.
Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to beloved.
hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom.
rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"or "beautiful" to everyone.
stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.

AUGUST=FLIRT
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around.
You love to make new friends and be outgoing.
You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie.
Like somebody with an August brithday.
It is also more than likelythat you have a massive record collection.
When it comes to films, you know how to pick them
and may one daybecome a famous actor/actressyourself.

SEPTEMBER=METAL HEAD
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.
Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality.
Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous.
Usuallyyou have many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty.
Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others.
Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover canunderstand.

OCTOBER=HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous.
Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious.
Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality.
Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes.
Meets new people easily and very social in a group.
Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd.
Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind.

NOVEMBER=SWEETY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking. Loyal and generous.
Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness.
Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind.
Hesitating, tends to delay.
Choosy and always wants the best.

DECEMBER=BEAUTY
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre.
Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Treats friends importantly.
Brave and fearless. Always making friends.
It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer. Horny but does fullfill. Opinionated.
Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun.
Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you.

I'm 30 seconds to mars and even beyond!

Wow. How long have I been out?? I think about 13 days! It was definitely not planned. And I don't think it mattered much anyways coz I'm not that famous. Nobody will miss me, rite? haha.

So what have I been doing?

Aside from being a couch potato...I'm now learning to drive. I'm sooo close at becoming independent. Driving is the root of all independance! Tomorrow I have a practical class. And after that, I can't wait to drive around the school (not allowed yet to hit the road). I have to at least wait a month before I can have the licence to kill..erkk I mean, licence to drive. lol.

So....

A quick update for my music taste this week...I'm currently very obsessed with 30 Seconds To Mars. I known this band for quite a long time...a few months ago. But I don't know why, I never really REALLY listened to their music. But a few days ago, I saw their MV for From Yesterday on MTV2...and I'm stunned. I said, "WOW. Why didn't I love this band before?" I never gave them a second listen. But now I already become osessed.


I searched every place for them. Youtubed...downloaded...googled...wikipediaed...everything! I'm obsessed! What's prominent about them is their sense of melody even though they're a rock band, and Jared Leto's amazing voice. I love his voice unplugged, you know, when he doesn't scream. He sounds better when he's not screaming. Hehe. But to make a clear statement here: I'm not drawn to 30STM coz of Jared Leto, though. Coz I barely watched him as an actor (I'm not a movie junkie). And so I previously didn't even know how he looks or if he's in any blockbuster.


Enough said, I love them for the music they're making and they ROCK MY WORLD! You should check out their songs...From Yesterday is my fav so far.

is that a keyboard???

Wow! Keyboard waffle maker!!! How cool is that?! Arrghh where can I buy it?

Keyboard waffle courtesy of gizmodo.com

spidey's awesome, man!

I watched SpiderMan 3 yesterday! And yesterday is the premiere! May 1st was sooo awesome. It's the first time ever for me to be catching a movie on the first day. Wooohooo!

I have no intentions to review the movie. Just 2 words for ya: SIMPLY AWESOME!

return of spidey

I finished my final exam!

Finally!

I have 2 months break till I come back for my second year of brain busting activities.

up date.

So no, my room mate is not back yet from the hospital. Yup.


As for me, I've finished and done all the projects and assignments...I feel so relieved and happy yknow! No strings attached. Now I just have to focus towards my final exams. Just that. Seems easy enough.


ERm and I missed the Computer Organisation (on purpose, shut up!). Yup coz I hate presentations and I can't get up that early, man!


See ya later,
-nash-

ram bell ling

Any way today is my day off...I got to go to class tomorrow...data structure is a must now. Thursday morning I have presentation for Computer Organisation and Friday I have Database presentation. I'm kinda glad that I'll be finishing all presentations on this week so I don't have to constantly worry about them ever again. And I wanna come home this week even though I have somethings this Friday and I think it's gonna be the last time I go home...coz the final exam is near!!!


And the thing that constantly bug me now is that I have one paper at the Dewan Gemilang. I don't even know where it's situated but all I know is that it's freakingly fucking far away!!! I can't walk there and I don't even know what bus to take to go there or if there IS any bus to go there. I'm trying not to think about it so much but the thought keep on coming back to me. It does not help either that I'm staying in my room all alone!


Last night Yati my former roomate asked me for help in the english language probs (typical for me). And she said she need help forning a couple of sentence and it's not much. But when she came to my room, she needs me to form a whole oral presentation text for her! As much as I hate teaching people, I hate lazy stupid bums even more! She can't even think of a thing to write, I have to think it up for her! If she's my brother I'd smacked her in the head!


Later, she asked me if She had ever hurt my feelings since last sem. I told her yeah...and I only mentioned about her noisy friends who invaded the room every single night. I had lots more in mind, but I don't wanna say coz I just want her outta my room at the moment. Seriously, it's very uncomfortable having her in the room. I just stay quite and smiled politely (inside I'm seething) until she can't think of anything else to chat up. But she asked me to come to her room. I said "No!" and she said "too lazy to walk up the stairs?" I just nodded. In fact...not that I'm lazy, but I simply don't wanna! Bye! And I'm alone again...and I love it!!!


Zila my now sicky roomate will come back from hospital tomorrow or Thursday. And just going back home again and putting off the short sem (again). Wonder when she'll be better? It's a kinda mystery sickness lah...I can't explain it! So I'll be alone in the room! People might view the last sentence and say "What a lonelygirl15! Don't you feel scared sitting all alone in the room? Tak boring ke?" Hell no! I'm not overconfident or over reacting but it's true. I love some alone time for myself!


Okay I'm off! I'm at the cc right now and had actually lost track of time.

of hotels and stinking

Haih....I'm so excited to come to this computer lab. But guess what, I got here and there's no electricity! Well, I think the correct term is there is no air-con...coz there's light...and the computers are working....hmmm...


Anyways, needless to say it's freakin hot in here!! Argh...I'm baked. And I'll be stinking very soon...talk about B.O...


At 2pm I'll have my English presentation and I'm not even prepared for it. My group mate is the one who makes the power point...and it's with her right now. I didn't come to Math class this morning, and I guess she couldn't give it to me then. Oh well, I might as well just read the damn thing. Even if I had the power point sheet with me, I know I wouldn't be bothered to practice or anything! Hope my presentation goes well...huhu.

long chat

Last night I chatted with this guy over my bro's msn...coz I accidentally send a comment about diana king's vid while using my bro's youtube account...which resulted to this guy asking my bro instead of me about Diana King. Which my bro didn't even like and don't know anything about.


So I chatted a bit with him explaining about Diana King and her Jamaican accent. And leaded to other musical things. This guy is a music freak, I tell you. And I'm quite awkward coz I've never chatted since I'm 16...quite a few years ago. So I'm kinda weird. And it becomes weirder when he wanted to webcam. I don't have a webcam, so I just watch him... he's kinda cute and all that...spanish guy..


But I found he was gay...by his favorite vids in youtube. Such a waste! But it's strange that I'm kinda looking forward to chat with him again. Maybe coz he's a music freak like me...


Whatever...hahaha.