Update!

Back to driving school! Have to start from the beginning. Retake the beginner class. Scolded by the auntie who works there, she said it's such a loss that I re-register late coz my L licence expired liao. Huhu. So back to square one.


And because the teacher showed us so many clips of car accidents videos, I became amused by it. Kinda sick...but I don't ENJOY watching car crash. But just amazed and intrigue by such incidents. Mostly they invoke fear so that I will be careful when I'm driving. It's sad that most of these accidents happen because of people who drive recklessly and didn't follow the rules. And the sickest part is that these accidents involved innocent people who didn't see it coming. It's okay if you wanna kill yourself, but in this case, you are dragging other people down with you. What have they done that made you wanna kill them too?


I'm so angry.


Geram gerammm!


This shows that we can never be too careful. Sometimes a car or a truck can come out of nowhere and hit you while you are walking on a pavement. So....



Live every day like it is your last...I guess. That's the only thing to do!

Yeayeaa aku dah antar disertasi kat ofis faculty! Setelah menunggu seminggu untuk jilid siap! Bengong punya kedai jilid...org lain dapat 3 hari siap. Dia lambat nak mati...cemas aku dibuatnya. Dan menyusahkan kedua orang tua ku yang disayangi. Aku dah naik UKM pun tak siap lagi. Akibatnya mak bapak aku terpaksa gi hantar 2 buah buku hijau tu ke UKM malam tadi. Dah la dorang dua dua rabun...lagi terpaksa antar disertasi malam2 buta.



Akhirnya perasaan merdeka datang juga! Yeah! Jangan la perkara malang yang lain melanda...sekarang saya mau enjoy seenjoy enjoynya!!!!

This comment on one of his vid is exactly how I feel about him:

Strangely, I did the same, for an unknown reason a few weeks ago I browsed a lot of old videos of MJ and I am not a big big fan of him (at least not at that time). I grew up listening to MJ "passively" and it is part of my life. When he passed out I really could appreciate all of his legacy, and get to the impossibly to avoid conclusion: he is the greatest artist that ever lived on our century.

My youtube watching craze: First Tori Amos live vids...now it evolved into Michael Jackson's vids! He can really dance! I guess I've never really watched him as he was only famous around the time when I was very young. After that he was just known for his scandals.


...


What a poor dude. I did some research, like I always did. And my intuition was right. I knew that he changed his face so much because he didn't want to look like his father. That's really the extend of his disgust toward his dad. If you guys saw the interview at the BET awards, you can clearly see that his father don't even care about the fact that his son just died. In fact, he had the guts to promote his record company! What a douche.

...

I just wanna say something here. Michael's kids don't look like him. I reasoned this the other day. If even you bleached your skin white, your genes still have your DNA. So Michael is born black. Shouldn't his kids at least be tanned?? AT LEAST! I mean, look at me. I'm half malay and half chinese. My dad is dark, my mom is white. So my brother and I are slightly darker because my dad's gene has combined with my mom's to create us. It doesn't make any sense that his kids didn't have any resemblance to him. It could mean one thing: He hired a sperm donor. I thought long and hard on why he did this...surrogate...sperm donor...some sources also said that he only married Debbie Rowe because she was a surrogate mother to his kid and so that it won't look weird to public eye if the truth was revealed. But after his second kid came along, Debbie Rowe discovered that she could not get pregnant anymore because her womb was injured. So he decided to divorce her for that. His third child was the only one whom he confessed was carried by a surrogate.



So why? Well, I figured that maybe: He didn't want to pass down his genes to his kids. As I stated above, he hated his dad so much. He changed his face so as to not look like his father every time he looked in the mirror. Now, why would he make babies who will look like his father? It's so sad that his father made this big of an impact over his life. If it wasn't for his dad, maybe he could have led a happier life! Well, things happen for a reason. There's just one thing Joe Jackson did, that is to bring Michael into the world. That's it. Ugh I really hate that Joe Jackson.



AND...



I just know in my heart that Michael Jackson is not a pedophile. I didn't believe it once! He's too good and gentle to be a villain. He's just a big child. He didn't have a childhood. He grew up too fast. People must understand that. The cancer kid just making the story up. And the parents just want the money! Can't you see? Michael is wealthy. Of course some people will take advantage of him and his situation! I hate people who said he's a pedophile. Hope you rot in hell!

I finished my thesis! Presented it yesterday. It was horrible. I don't wanna think about it anymore. I certainly won't be going through that again EVAR! I'll try to avoid any sort of work that involve superiors scrutinizing me.



Now I'm enjoying my freedom from headaches and panic caused by the thesis project! Yippee!

It's been so long! I knew about this after I woke up on Friday. So I'm late not because I didn't know about the news, but I was so busy to post.




So, Michael Jackson passed away. God bless him. I never thought he will go this fast. I always thought he would be here forever. This goes on to show that every body has to die someday. And we never know when we gonna go.




You know what, it's funny. How every channel and radio now plays his songs now. People began to watch his vid on youtube more. They never even bothered before this. And now everyone is obsessed.





For example:
me.




Well, I don't really know how to explain it myself. I'm not a big fan. But I listen to one of his song on my playlist every day. That song is Human Nature. So I guess I'm not that obvious. It's not that I never listen to him in so long but suddenly wanting to listen to all of his songs after he died.




But I did rediscovered a song that I loved as a child as a result of this 'phenomenon'. I found They don't Really Care About Us! It really reminded me of my childhood. Hmm come to think of it, all of his songs and videos reminds me of my childhood. My mom said that he was at his prime at that point of time. I remembered that I was young and saw him on tv and thought "Is this a man or a woman?" Haha I was so young! Well, he looked weird, so naturally I was a little curious!




Another memory I have of him was when he came to Malaysia for his tour. I was still young at that time. I saw a report on tv and there was a footage of him in a car. The car was driving away, and fans were screaming and crying! They followed the car and grabbed the windows and doors. Crying and screaming like maniacs. And I was like "Why are they crying?? They like him or not??" LOL memories...





Well, I'm glad that he converted to Islam before he died. I hope he's blessed by Allah. Rest in peace Michael. We will miss you.

Ah, I forgot to update. My phone is now with me. Hehe. Awa found it in her car and kept it for me. Thank God!