Got a little dream out of my little nap from 6pm till 8pm! It involves TORI and NEIL!! Wow thats a stretch, coz I didn't even think about them lately! Whoa I'm so excited. I can't get over how amazingly beautiful Tori looked. And Neil is tall and handsome :D


So, turns out that I'm back in school and class is over. I called my mom to pick me up but she said she's busy. She asked me to find someone else who is free at the time. And guess what? I called Tori, wtf, I have her number?! And she's glad she could pick me up at my school.


She came with a big mpv like car. I saw her and I'm completely stunned. She's gorgeous! Like a goddess. And I saw her posses...but for some reason they are not Isabel, Pip, Clyde, etc. No, but they are her lookalikes and were edgier and prettier than Tori's real life posses. Amazing. And Neil Gaiman was in the back seat by himself. I sat next to him and was starstruck. He's tall. And for some reason I felt very comfortable next to him. Almost feel like hugging him. I don't know what we talked about, but I don't feel awkward, almost felt like meeting an uncle. Tori also felt like an aunt, a very strong independent type aunt. She's driving, so I don't interact much with her. Which is a shame. But I was satisfied just seeing her in all her glory and beauty...ahhh..


I don't remember the rest of the dream...though the last thing I remember is of myself worrying if my parents did come to pick me up but I wasn't there. That's all...that journey in Tori's car was the best thing evar happened in my dreams!!!

Since the day I watched the movie Choke, I can't seem to get it off my mind. Not the movie itself, but the music. The movie was just bleh...interesting story, but too much nudity haha :) I love the actor though. For some reason, I find him to be hot even though he's kinda old. He's Sam Rockwell, I dunno if any of you know him, but I remember him from Charlie's Angel, played the bad guy who tricked Drew Barrimore. Enough about the movie, it's all about the music! The ending track was BEAUTIFUL. Hauntingly beautiful. It's Reckoner by Radiohead. In my opinion it was the perfect ending song for the movie. The way the ending scene was crafted with this song is just amazing. I'm in love with this song now. I can't get it off my head, actually. It will be played on and on until I play something else on my playlist. I effin love this song!!!! No I won't post this song here coz who cares...haha go search for it yourself if you wanna go check it out. Just don't go and check out this movie though coz it's evil. It will pollute your mind with sex and nudity and dirtyness that you just can't wipe off of your mind. Your mind will be doomed forever!



But I do wanna go and check out the book written by Chuck Palahniuk. It's called Choke as well. If you guys don't know him, he's the writer famous for writing Fight Club. Yeah that's another disturbing movie you don't wanna know. So... people got the idea on how he writes his stuffs. He has got the skill to pollute your mind while you just sat there unable to stop turning the pages. Personally I haven't read his books. But I've seen Fight Club the movie. And Choke the movie. And I think, with all book adaptations, the movie is not going to be as perfect as the book. Because...it's a book adaptation. Therefore, it is based on the book, and many scriptwriters skipped some of the vital stuff in the book to accommodate the budget and time. Soooo...I really wanna get the full take on what the story is all about. I wanna go buy the book as soon as I have the money, time and energy to go to MPH or Borders Midvalley again. I love going to Midvalley, coz it's easy to get there via Komuter from UKM. It's less of a hassle than to beg my mom to go to the bookstore. Besides, Puchong sucks. There's only Popular Bookstore in IOI Mall. BOOOOOOOOOO! Popular sucks. Just depend on popularity only. Get it? Haha. You know what's my ultimate goal, in the books department? I wanna go to Kinokuniya KLCC! But I dunno when that's gonna happen. I think I can go and change to LRT at KL Sentral but I'm scared I'll get lost. BOOHOOOO. Oh well.


Forgive my stream-of-consciousness writing style today. It's just that I wanna get writing and not think too much. If I think too much, I'll never write anything in this blog again. My life is very boring this time. So I don't have anything exciting to tell you guys. And that's really a bummer, coz I enjoy writing here in my blog. But how can I do that if I have no news to tell? This is exactly why I have no mood to go to class. I feel so lifeless. The only thing that's keeping me alive these days is the internet. I love spending time on the internet. Even though I can't pinpoint what exactly that I did, if anyone ever asks me :D


That's all from me today, stay safe!

Update!

Back to driving school! Have to start from the beginning. Retake the beginner class. Scolded by the auntie who works there, she said it's such a loss that I re-register late coz my L licence expired liao. Huhu. So back to square one.


And because the teacher showed us so many clips of car accidents videos, I became amused by it. Kinda sick...but I don't ENJOY watching car crash. But just amazed and intrigue by such incidents. Mostly they invoke fear so that I will be careful when I'm driving. It's sad that most of these accidents happen because of people who drive recklessly and didn't follow the rules. And the sickest part is that these accidents involved innocent people who didn't see it coming. It's okay if you wanna kill yourself, but in this case, you are dragging other people down with you. What have they done that made you wanna kill them too?


I'm so angry.


Geram gerammm!


This shows that we can never be too careful. Sometimes a car or a truck can come out of nowhere and hit you while you are walking on a pavement. So....



Live every day like it is your last...I guess. That's the only thing to do!

Yeayeaa aku dah antar disertasi kat ofis faculty! Setelah menunggu seminggu untuk jilid siap! Bengong punya kedai jilid...org lain dapat 3 hari siap. Dia lambat nak mati...cemas aku dibuatnya. Dan menyusahkan kedua orang tua ku yang disayangi. Aku dah naik UKM pun tak siap lagi. Akibatnya mak bapak aku terpaksa gi hantar 2 buah buku hijau tu ke UKM malam tadi. Dah la dorang dua dua rabun...lagi terpaksa antar disertasi malam2 buta.



Akhirnya perasaan merdeka datang juga! Yeah! Jangan la perkara malang yang lain melanda...sekarang saya mau enjoy seenjoy enjoynya!!!!

This comment on one of his vid is exactly how I feel about him:

Strangely, I did the same, for an unknown reason a few weeks ago I browsed a lot of old videos of MJ and I am not a big big fan of him (at least not at that time). I grew up listening to MJ "passively" and it is part of my life. When he passed out I really could appreciate all of his legacy, and get to the impossibly to avoid conclusion: he is the greatest artist that ever lived on our century.

My youtube watching craze: First Tori Amos live vids...now it evolved into Michael Jackson's vids! He can really dance! I guess I've never really watched him as he was only famous around the time when I was very young. After that he was just known for his scandals.


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What a poor dude. I did some research, like I always did. And my intuition was right. I knew that he changed his face so much because he didn't want to look like his father. That's really the extend of his disgust toward his dad. If you guys saw the interview at the BET awards, you can clearly see that his father don't even care about the fact that his son just died. In fact, he had the guts to promote his record company! What a douche.

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I just wanna say something here. Michael's kids don't look like him. I reasoned this the other day. If even you bleached your skin white, your genes still have your DNA. So Michael is born black. Shouldn't his kids at least be tanned?? AT LEAST! I mean, look at me. I'm half malay and half chinese. My dad is dark, my mom is white. So my brother and I are slightly darker because my dad's gene has combined with my mom's to create us. It doesn't make any sense that his kids didn't have any resemblance to him. It could mean one thing: He hired a sperm donor. I thought long and hard on why he did this...surrogate...sperm donor...some sources also said that he only married Debbie Rowe because she was a surrogate mother to his kid and so that it won't look weird to public eye if the truth was revealed. But after his second kid came along, Debbie Rowe discovered that she could not get pregnant anymore because her womb was injured. So he decided to divorce her for that. His third child was the only one whom he confessed was carried by a surrogate.



So why? Well, I figured that maybe: He didn't want to pass down his genes to his kids. As I stated above, he hated his dad so much. He changed his face so as to not look like his father every time he looked in the mirror. Now, why would he make babies who will look like his father? It's so sad that his father made this big of an impact over his life. If it wasn't for his dad, maybe he could have led a happier life! Well, things happen for a reason. There's just one thing Joe Jackson did, that is to bring Michael into the world. That's it. Ugh I really hate that Joe Jackson.



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I just know in my heart that Michael Jackson is not a pedophile. I didn't believe it once! He's too good and gentle to be a villain. He's just a big child. He didn't have a childhood. He grew up too fast. People must understand that. The cancer kid just making the story up. And the parents just want the money! Can't you see? Michael is wealthy. Of course some people will take advantage of him and his situation! I hate people who said he's a pedophile. Hope you rot in hell!