blahhhh wekk

I don't know what to say. I don't know what to feel.

This guy is extremely boring. Something has to do with a) time difference, and b) he's always (seemed) busy.

Then he said he wants to give me laptop, chocolate, gold necklace, etc. Asked me for my address to send them to. I don't think those sorta gifts are appropriate for me, who had been only chatting for a week. Not even chatting, just hi, how r u, have u eaten, r u busy, that type of talk!

I don't know if I can trust him. I asked him "Can I trust you? Don't do anything stupid with my details" and he just said, "why would I do that? I'm not someone in the third world country to do that sorta thing".

Huhh...in other words "Lu Pikirlah Sendiri"

How can I believe him? His pictures looks like it's taken from some celeb website, he sent me poems everyday (about the same old thing). Wanna look at one he recently sent me? Here:

Hi my lovely friend

How was your last night?
Hope you slept well
Because i know God will surely made
You that because your his number
He think of your the most precious one he will not
Abandon bear it in mind he love's you
Well I wishes you today all your plane
Will be success what ever you
Touch will turn to gold
Enough favor big expatiation.

I wanted to thank you,
But I couldn't explain,
What it means to have a friend
To share life's joys and pains.
It's good to know our friendship
Is one of endless devotion?
Forged out of respect
And every kind emotion;
It’s patient and forgiving,
Never failing or forsaking
When a hand is outstretched
Or a heart is breaking;
It’s ever faithful
Even when the world condemns,
And sparkles in the darkness
Like a rare and precious gem.
And it does my heart well
At the end of the day
To know you'll never be
Farther than an email away.

I can't tell you how much,
Your friendship means to me,
But thank you, friend!

Bye take care of your self
My regard to your family
And friends say hi to them all.

Imagine you receive poems like this every single day...

I want to vomit now.

At first, it seems very thoughtful, like I just wanna go "Ahhhh~ ♥"

But now, it's so boring! Furthermore, 'friends'. Does he seriously think a girl just wanna be friends?? When he's looking for a girl in OKCUPID?? A DATING SITE!!

I don't wanna be just friends!


GOSH!

*end of rant*

wtf happened to me?

Wow.

My pics are in my friendster. Please come and see it there, okay. Its not very convenient to post them here since there's so many.

My University supervisor will come next Wednesday, and I seriously don't know what to do if he comes here. Argh.

My mum has meetings till Thursday. And I have to stay back. On Monday, we went home at 12.30 AM. That's a first for the both of us. I am scared, alone in her room in the middle of the night. I even managed to shock myself by mistaking the beat of the song Juliet - Emilie Autumn, with someone banging on the door. Seriously, I have never detected that beat before when I listened to it on my pc, but I listened to it on the earphone and cellphone and there it waaas...shocking stuff.

Thankfully, yesterday we can go home at 8.30PM. I actually prepared myself to stay back late till midnight and even bought my KAMI DVD to watch, but since my mum's done early, I didn't managed to watch it. Maybe tonite I can watch, coz mum says that today will be more hectic coz there's over 20 ppl coming to present their budgets etc etc. So I'm pretty prepared, mentally and physically...and brought stuff like magazines, my HDD with loads of movies in it, and my freshly charged phone (for music purposes).

Also, I found this guy on okcupid from Liverpool. Yeah. Actually he found me, and sent me a message. I was shocked, coz most guys that message me from there are niggas and one iranian whos a sex freak (i ignored him now, and I ignored all niggas). I dunno why niggas like me! I'm scared of them. They scare me so much. No matter how sweet their words are. I'm so afraid to layan, coz they're everywhere! I thought if I layan them, they're come get me and do bad things to me (eg rape).

So this Liverpool guy, I think I like him. *blushing*

I didn't at first, coz I thought he's just like others (who likes to talk about sex only). But he's very sweet. He didn't even hinted on sex. Just chatting to get to know each other. I dunno why, but he likes to ask me about my family (pretty odd, lol). But...yeah...it's kinda funny, coz we've only chatted that one time only, 2 days ago...but I kinda miss him and think about him every day.

He sent me poems for 2 days now... *melting*

I feel guilty that I don't have the talent for poems. I want to write poems for him too~

The thing is; we have 8 hours difference. So when I get to work, 8 AM, he's preparing to sleep already. So we can only chat to say hi, how are you etc...then he has to sleep. Huhu...

So he's sleeping now...I hope he dreams about me...haha

Ok I don't wanna let my hopes up too high. Who knows if he's just playing with me?? So I'll just be friends and see what happens.

Thats all for the updates. Babai for now..

replace me?

While waiting for the raya photos, mari kiter layan gambo2 ni dulu, k? This is the latest pics! I took them a few minutes ago...yay..



My desk...so messy. I love my pc! I'm drinking oligo coco! I have 3 mugs.

Oligo coucow, pilihan yang hebat, ceria gembira, nikmati bersammaa...




And this is me, looking surprised. I'm surprised that I'm a cam-whore! OMGah!


P/s: I transferred my raya pics to my home pc last night, but foolishly forgotten to transfer it to my harddiskie! There's something wrong with my modem at home, so I know that I have to upload it at work. Now, I can't coz all the pics are at home :'(

up to the date

Hey hey hey!

Long time no see!

Selamat Hari Raya sume! I know it's late, but, whatever.

Aku balik kampung raye aritu!! After a long, long time, I went back to Johor. I got lots of duit raya.

I got pics, but I haven't transferred them to my pc yet, so until I do, you have to wait...hehe.

Nothing much, mostly of inanimate things, lol. I cam whored a lot...

*smiles*