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Omigod! Wheere have I been?!?! What happened to me...What's whong with me!?

I broke my promise :'(

Sorry bloggie....

This is how it goes baby...

Hey I had just finished off the Stephanie Plum book I read since last week. Last night, I said, what the hell, I wanna finish this book tonight!!! So I did. And I felt very happy! Muahahahaha! That book is crazy funny! Actually it is a series. I read number 7 already, 7 Up...The book I'm finished reading yesterday is number 6, Hot Six. And I think I'm gonna go buy or borrow others...earlier books and latest ones! I'm a fan! Crazy funny I tell you. You guys should read it too.

I'm no good at reviewing things...hahaha...

Suddenly I can't stay in this room,
You'll never sway, and I have nothing left that I can think of to say.
What do you want me to think of my thought?
Bear it in mind, if I cannot believe in me who will I then be?

And so I'll run but not too far, in case you chase me ooohhh...
But this is how it goes, baby.
I'll get angry at your words and I'll go home
And you won't call after me 'cos I'll be back before you know, you know...

So give me a tooth full of that smile,
and know-it-all eyes you show me
just to prove that you don't need to lose it.
You tell me I'm your fortress of desire
but is it a crime for me to say my own view
and want then not to fear you?

And so I'll run but not too far, in case you chase me...ooohh
But this is how it goes, baby,
I'll get angry at your words and I'll go home
then you won't call after me 'cos I'll be back before you know,
you know, yeah I'll be back before you know...

La di da di day...la di da di day doo...
And so I'll run but not too far...

'Cos this is how it goes, baby,
I'll get angry at your words and I'll go home...yeah
then you won't call after me,
'cos I'll be back before you know, you know...

yeah, I'll be back before you know...
and so I'll run but not too far...

fucking maggot idiot

I received an sms from my project leader last night, confronting me about my inability to come to ANOTHER meeting today at 1 pm.

Well, for one thing, nobody has ever kacau me at a Sunday, okay?! It's my time with my family, dammit, I still need to go home to relieve me from all these stress that you've given me. You can call me whatever you want, I don't mind. I still want and like to go home on weekends to see my family. I won't wanna stare at the same 4 walls like you do!

And then, you confront me, saying things like "Nasha, u better tell me early on if you don't like my way of 'leading' (lol)...i can tolerate ur nonsense rite now just becoz you gave coorperation..but i'm not that eager to be ur boss and edit all your work..." <---something like that.

I don't quote it as a whole coz I seems to have deleted it (oopsie!lol)...but that sms is a kick in the stomach...with spikey shoes. It hurts. It hurts my dignity. I would've wanna reply it back with retort, but I didn't. If I'm high or drunk, I would. But I'm alive and not sleeping at that time....and I thought what's the point? If I did, things will not be the same again between us. If she were to be a stranger to me, it won't be too awkward. But she's within my close classmates. I think I won't be as hurt and not to mention guilty, if I was asleep. I won't give a damn about what you said, MT. But I was up till 3 am.

My reply would be like this (if I don't give a damn):

Firstly, who asks you to edit all the works? This is supposed to be a group project. You're supposed to delegate the stuff to do, and we'll do it ourself. And then get together to combine our works. Not organizing meetings every single fucking day!!!

You know that at the beginning we're all synonimous in making you the project leader. That is simply because you're that bossy. That's the only thing. We know it won't work with any other guys. And, you know what? If you're not the boos oso, you will still be bossy. I just can tell that! So why not just give it to you?

But by smsing me in the middle of the night, telling me off is plain ridiculous, man! I stick by you to do this fucking pain in the ass project, and this is the first time I miss anything! And then you did it...I lost my cool man. Aku memang dah lame bengang ngan ko la MT. I know you're tired, but I think you're mostly tired because of your tendency to be a perfectionist. You worry so much about stupid things! I know you realized that other groups are having fun and still cool, when you thought you're going to die from exhaustion. They just did whatever is required in the project! They don't overthink, and keep on changing things! Even in past years thesis that we looked together, the requirement and design are so simple and some even had some mistakes and inconsistencies. but Still they got an A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A fucking AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! Why is that? Because the final product is ace! You said that yourself. Can't you remember?

I tell you lah, MT, if you fuss so much, the work won't get done at all. Coz you will keep on changing things and we will get a C or something. So don't blow this la. I'm fed up with you most of the times. I get sour faced. I don't wanna be, but I can't help it. You're a pain in the butt. Sometimes I just wanna run a 100 metres race away from you and get onto a bus. Everything that I do is wrong to you. You asked for opinions from me, but you argue with me. Counteract the things that I suggested. Why did you wanna ask my opinion in the first place? If you're so right, just do it on your own la. Or don't ask people for what they think. Since, what you think is more important.

OK lah...I'm drained. Thanks readers and friends who read this till the end. Sorry to bore you with rants. :( I'm so pissed rite now. Ok my bro wants to use the pc...

they weren't there

I will stay here for today...and study for tomorrow's social science exam. And after that exam, mum will pick me up to go home...

miaaaaaawwwwww!

life is hard, dahhlinn

Yesterday I couldn't post an entry, coz I was having a project meeting from hell from 2 till 6, and at night I'm lazy and tired to go down to CC.

So forgive me darling...:(

I can't go home this weekend, coz on Saturday I'm having a mid term test at the hall. But I still wanna go home and fetch my beloved guitar, coz I wanna try out the tuner and the capo. And most importantly, I wanna start playing again. The calluses that I've built up on my fingers are practically gone. Gone. My fingertips are soft again. I don't want that to happen, but that's what you get for stopping the guitar playing flow. My friend, G, is experiencing the same thing. I touched her fingertips and it's becoming soft too. Hard calluses on your left hand's fingertips are key to playing guitar effectively! And now I cringe when I try to play the guitar at music class, coz it hurts. :'(

Hmm...maybe after the test, at Saturday noon, I will ask my mum to fetch me at the hall. I wanna play my goddamn guitar!!!!!!!!! Huh..........

so quick!

hi...quick update here.

I know I created the term guitarpianist for my blog. But I didn't think it was unique or strange. But I googled that term "guitarpianist", and then my blog is the first result. I feel so damn good about that.

Bye!

of music and musings

Haishh...I wanted to update you this morning at fac's computer lab, but the connection was too damn slow. The blogger main page also cannot open wan.

But now I'm here, at the cyber cafe in college, at night. I'm hungry too ;) After this, I'll buy me some dinner...yum.

On other note, it suddenly occured to me last night while I immersed myself with Missy Higgins' songs.....That she's a fricken GUITARPIANIST! Hahahahah it's totally obvious from all the youtube videos...but I fricken overlooked it! And now, I totally will make her my official guitarpianist idol. Muahahhahaaaaaa! ~^o^~

Huuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

On yet another side note, today I went to Metro Kajang ALONE for teh first time. And not to mention, riding the Rapid bus outside UKM for the first time. LOL I'm fucking pathetic, aren't I? It's been 2 and half years in UKM and it's my first outing. I feel like I'm seeing the world for the first time... :) But kinda boring lah coz no one to talk to. I bought a guitar tuner (coz I think I might be tone-deaf) and a capo (to make it easier for me to play songs...it seems lotsa my favorite songs use the capo). And I bought a lip gloss (suddenly I wanna be fabulous...heh), a hair styling jelly (to tame my extremely wavy hair) and a normal pantene syampoo (my hairdresser said that anti-dandruff syampoo is not good for everyday use, have to alternate between normal one). The styling jelly is pretty cool, coz I think it does what it claims to do on the bottle. It smoothens and making it appear straighter. I tried it and it works! Thank God! And then I bought an ice-cream! Yayyyy it's been so long since I ate one. All in all, I'm satisfied of what I've done today and will definitely do it again. xP


Note to self: "See, it's not that scary isn't it? You should go out more often!"


So now...the proof of the guitarpianist-ness of Missy! Muahahahaha! I wanna be just like her.


On the guitar...



And on the piano...or if I usually say it, the pinano...

filling in the gap

I need to update right now, coz I'll be going back to my hostel soon. Hmm...what ah? Maybe a survey will suffice, for now. I really have no idea in my head, except the fact that I"ve been putting off my project work up till now. Ah malam nanti baru buat la...hehe :) Don't worry, I have tons of coffee to accompany me.

1. How old will you turn in 2009?
- 22...so old ordy

2. Do you think you'll be married by
then?
- no sirreeee! i don't even have a bf!

3. What do you look forward to most in
the next 3 months?
- completing the tedious process of my Group Project! i will like, scream once it's over!

4. Do you like to say "i told you so?"
- no la...only when i'm really annoyed...

5. Who was the last person you called?
- nobody kot...i hate calling ppl

6. Do you prefer call or text?
- texxt...simple and straight. cheeper too! ;)

7. Do you have any pets?
- yep. a cat named Abu.

8. What were you doing at 1:30 am?
- playing dope wars and surfing the internet for who knows what...lol

9. What were you doing at 3:00 am?
- still doing the above ^^

10. When is the last time you saw your
mom?
- 20 minute ago...she's out laa...hehe

11. What is your mood?
- anxious and partially happy

12. How many houses have you lived in?
- 3

13. How many city/towns have you lived
in?
- 3...a house in each city

14. Do u prefer shoes, socks,barefeet?
- sport shoe is the most comfortable! so i need to bring my sport shoes back to hell! teruk blister kaki pakai sandals lol

15. Are you a social person?
- not rly...i take a long time to warm up to ppl.. :(

16. What was the last thing you ate?
- rice, kurma ayam (yummay) and funny looking vege. my mum's cooking! yayyy

17. What's your favorite color?
- blue, orange, purple, white, black

18. What are you doing for your next
birthday?
- baru jek abis this year's bday...dah nak ranccang next punye ker? lol

19. What is your favorite TV show?
- futurama and scrubs! the office pun besh!

20. What kind of jelly do you like on
your PB & J sandwich?
- blueberry

21. Do you like coffee?
- yep, but not that much la. i LOVE it only when exam time comes...lol

22. What are you listening to?
- the tv...

23. Do you have an iPod?
- no...how sad?

24. How do you feel about the last
person you kissed?
- i don't kiss ppl...lol huhu :(

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of
the bed?
- i don't even have sides...my bed is single...\^o^/

That's all! Bye! See ya tomorrow!

Hopefully no more bad hair days...

I got a new haircut recently. And by recently, I meant 7 hours ago. Muahahaha! =)

As you probably know from my friendster and facebook, I'm currently in love with Missy Higgins. Who the hell is that?? I hear ya. Well, she's an amazing singer-songer with the ability to create deep emotions in me. She's bloody amazing. Heck, after all she converted me from a rocker to a soppy ass girl in a matter of seconds.

The first song I heard from her is The Special Two, which is a sad enough song, but can never compete with Sound Of White. I never failed (well, not yet at least) to cry and ger teary-eyed when listening and singing this song. You should at least check that song out...well, if you like singer-songers like I do, it's a MUST! In case you're wondering, no, it's not the current song I play on this blog. The song you are now listening (if your connection is good)...is called Where I Stood. This song is now my anthem on the brain radio. It's almost hypnotic. I cry to this song too, but it's not as intense as Sound Of White. Ahhhhhh...I'm too emotional these days and I wonder why lah... ;)

Gahhhhhhhhhh I LOVE MISSY HIGGINS!!!!!!!!! SHE"S A FUCKING GODDESS!

Here she is...jeng jeng jeng!

Hi hello Missy!

And now, lo and behold, comes a monster and a wannabe...heheh...who else? OK this is my new image...tell me if it's cool or not, k? lol

Me and my oily face...huhuhu :( Got to take pics before going to shower...

And lastly, the monster maniac!

<------I have no idea how I managed to capture this!

Hahahhahahah!!! Do I look the same as Missy? You know what, I even went as far as printing the two pics of Missy above to show to the stylist. And I think she has done a really good job! =) I'm a happy customer. I love this kinda short. This next pic is after my shower. I think without styling products on my hair, it is nicer.

^^what's with the frown, my dear?lol...I'm sad coz the fabulous hair products have been washed away in the shower.

This is the rest of the photos...profile views and long views. I looked happy. I'm a camera whore (first timer). Not like you guys laaa...hahah baru nak merasa jadi camera whore ni.

Compare - ison:

VS

And....

VS

Wahhhhhhh I'm so happy today! \^-^/

lay

I think I'm gonna change my layout. This one is too childish laaaaaaaa...hehehe :)

:(

(late) resolution

Hi again blog! Haiyah why do I always lost for ideas when it comes to writing in my blog? This is MY blog, not nobody's. And yet, I still don't know what to write!!!

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I think I should set goals. At least 1 entry per day. Yeah. That would be awesome! What if I don't have the idea? Hmm...I will at least write something. Like: "!!!!! I'm crazy awesome!!!"

Yeah...starting today I will follow this goal to the end! OK buddy? (referring to my alter ego).

LETS DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Papai!

sad to be back

hi blog!

Today is the end of my mid-sem break. Why does it have to end???

And as I expected, I didn't study about PHP, MySQL, Photoshop and Dreamweaver at all. Those are supposed to be my mission during the holidays! Bahh...me and my procrastination. I'd rather download tons of movies than studying. And, knowing me, I have no one else to blame. ;)

After this, I will go back to the routine of going to project meetings and discussing. Arrghhh...

Oh well...