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I slept. Boooohooooooo...

short hiatus (you won't even miss me)

Hey...Tomorrow is my first exam paper for this short sem. So I'm announcing my little hiatus as of today onwards...okay? Got it? Hahaha...I'm nervous about this one coz I have to improve my grades and this is the perfect time to do so as I only took 3 subjects. I should have more time to revise only 3 subjects rite? (NOT!)

So I think I'm gonna cram everything into my brain tonite. What's worst is that I have 2 difficult paper tomorrow!! ARGH I can't sleep anymore! Note to self: Don't sleep at all, you bastard!

I've been sleeping involuntarily a LOT since 2 days ago. I could've been studying!

Okay, I'm off. I can't wait for all this to be over!

i'm in LUST

I think if I ever fall in love and get married (hehe), this will be my official love song.



Hey you
Gender nectar
Sifting through the grain of gold
Tripping at your door
is that you,
Alpha in her blood?
And when the woman lies
You don't believe her

Rolling and unrolling
Coiling emerging
Running free
Running through the underworld
into your room

Is he real or a ghost-lie?
She feels she isn't heard
And the veil tears and rages
till her voices are remembered
And his secrets can be told

Hey you
Gender nectar
Crystalline from the vine
You know you'll drink her

Rolling and unrolling
Coiling emerging
Running free
Running through the afterworld
into your room

So she prays
For a prankster
and lust
In the marriage bed

And he waits
till she can give
And he waits and...
he waits...

lalalala update? Nah!

I already bersemangat to write here yesterday, but there's something wrong with blogger. Now I have no desire to write, but have to coz I got a lot to say in yesterday's post. Huuuuhssssss...BUT I fucking left my pendrive in which I saved the post in! Waaaaaaaaaaaa~

So, I don't wanna write it all over again, coz I forgot already what it is, humm it's just about this song that I love now.

Have you ever wondered what's lurking somewhere in your laptop or computer? No, I'm not talking about viruses...I'm talking about files that you don't even know existed. Documents that you forgot you had them...In my case, it's music. The songs that I don't realize is there. Up until...I got bored with my current play list. And one day I sifted through my music folder and discovered gems. Precious music.

And now I'm into Tori Amos all over again. The thing about me is that I seem to have periods of music. I can be into rock metal this one time, but in a couple of weeks I turn into a New Age hippie junkie. Yup, that's one fact for you.

Back to Tori's music. Tori Amos is a huge influence of my life. Her music is extraordinary...it's just surreal. And she has an extensive library of songs...coz she's just so productive. There's this song called Lust, I love it to death right now. And I remembered very vividly how much I despise this song over a year ago when I first downloaded it! I suddenly rediscovered it last week and I thought "OMG! This song is so great...why did I hated it so much last year??"

And so, I love this song to bits. It is soft, yet intense. I wish I could show you guys how great Tori Amos is...maybe next time. And maybe next time, I'll REMEMBER to bring my pen drive so I could upload the "tak jadi" post about this song. Hahahaha.

Hmm maybe I can show you who Tori Amos is...wait while I search for a nice pic of her ;)

Here she is...with her Bosendorfer Piano!



Ps: She's not a New Age artist (that was just an example, silly). She's beautiful, isn't she? She's a great singer songwriter and an amazing pianist. She's actually my real influence...I mean, she's the one that influence me to love the piano, not Maksim like many others think.

Okay, I'll stop here! *grinning*

Tori, you rock! AAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa!

Okay, till next time! I'll post that one as soon as possible.

I must be nightmare-ing

To make matters worse....There's going to be a movie about that book!!!!!!!!!!!

Whaaaa....Why? Why dammit??!! I love this book too much for them to just screw it up like this!

I'm not against movies based on novels or anything. Well, most of adapted-from-novel movies don't stick to the original story! I heard (or read) on IMDB that they're gonna end that movie with a pizza party scene! OOOO NOOOOOOO! What the fuck??

On top of that, the cast, as I discovered on the same website, is completely horrible! Imagine Cameron Diaz playing the distraught mother of a leukemic child...argh I don't even dare to see it happen! And Abigail Breslin playing Anna...great job to the production team...They seem to have not read the book. Can you imagine Abigail playing a girl suing her parents?? NOT IN A MILLION YEARS!

Arghhhhhhh I'm so tensed! Why can't they come up with a better set of actors to play in a powerful story like this? There are so many great actors out there: Maybe Cate Blanchett as the mother, maybe Ellen Page can be Anna, maybe George Clooney can be the father, and so many other actors!

What I'm really pissed of the most is that Alec Baldwin is Playing Campbell Alexander, and Julia Romano is prolly played by Joan Cusack. The two characters that I really like; and looks and behave in entirely different way than the actors could become! And not to mention they're OLD. WTF???????????????????????

I feel like I'm gonna bang this computer on the wall.

I can smell my emptiness...

Part of me said give in
And the other said let go.

I feel so depressed today. Not because my life sucks. But because of someone else's life. The peoples who don't really exist.

Fictional characters.

Why?

Coz I finished the book. My Sister's Keeper really broke my heart last night. I finished it in 5 hours straight. Well, of course not from cover to cover, but I picked up where I left my bookmark at. From slightly after the middle, and right through the end.

I cried so hard. I don't think I've cried this much when reading a book. ARGH I can't even put it into words! I was sobbing like mad. Why does it have to end like that? Jodi! Why??

I hate the way it ends, but at the same time, without that particular ending, the book won't be as what it is. It won't be as effective and heart tugging. So I must accept the fact and fate of the characters with all my heart. This book is extremely well written. I would recommend it to everyone. I think I've never been so engaged in a book right from the start before. This book grabs my heart from the prologue right to the end. Even though at certain point in the middle of the book, I felt like I wanna get right to the ending. Coz towards the middle, things are kinda boring, but it is important to the plot just as much. Coz I wanna know the facts and what really happened in the lives of all these people.

My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult! Remember the title for when you go to the bookstores! Definitely a keeper.

What??

I'm so tensed. It's supposed to be done today...but instead the lecturer postponed it to tomorrow. I'm so ready to let go of this today...but now I'm still burdened by this assignment. If I have presented this today, it means that one burden has been lifted from my shoulders.

But I have this, another one and yet another one! The other two are big projects...so I have to bear with them till end of semester. But this!! This is just a nuisance subject! I want to get through with it immediately! ARGGH!

Okay.

what up

WOW. Another one?? Huhuhuhuh...

I really don't feel like writing in this blog!!! Why? Why??

So...

What ah?

Hmmm...

I'm reading My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. How about that? I bought it yesterday and I love it immediately! I mean, the concept and idea behind that novel is very creative and original. I hope I can finish it soon...hehe.

Okay that's all I think...to Kaybee, finally I update this blog! Hahaha :)