empty cage

These are the thoughts...

I got a quote...

"You're just an empty cage, girl, if you kill the bird" -- Tori Amos

the truth lies between the 1st and the 40th drink

Well it's been a week since my last post. Not in the mood for anything the whole week. Except for lying around and listen to classical piano by Maksim.


Yup...out of the blue, I'm so into Maksim right now. Without any catalyst...not even Dee. I discovered it myself, while I'm wondering of what other songs can I download from Frostwire...and I thought...Maksim would be nice. It's been a while since I heard him.


So...yeah. I'm currently addicted to piano. Anything piano. The guitar part of me is slowly fading into nothingness. I love the piano! Love love lovey! Anyone care enough to buy me one? A little keyboard too will be sufficient...huhu...


It's very exciting to watch these pianist play their 'weapon'. They're so full of life and energetic...and nothing in this world can get in the way. I'm watching Tori Amos go piano shopping right now...she's soo great, even shopping for piano she's still great. Gets me pretty psyched and more desperate to buy one! I want an 88key keyboard please!


Erm...okay. If you're interested in anything that I just said, please contact me...I'll be good. ^-^

in his gallery, i froze...

Wow...looks like the 'losers' of American Idol aer on the rise now. Aside from Chris Daughtry, guess who else? It's Mario Vazquez from American Idol 4! Currently I'm so in love with his song, Gallery. Although this song is from a guy to a girl, but I really enjoyed singing it. Really really! I cried once while singing this song, would you believe it? I can't even believe it! Well the lyrics are not that deep, but it's the combination af the melody and lyrics that go on so well made this song so beautiful.


I would love it if a guy sing this song for me...heheh coz I'm quite attracted to money, y'know?


Wanna download? I know you wanna.
Mario Vazquez - Gallery


God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your lungs close
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul?
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you?
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cause I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul?
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you?
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cause I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cause I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cause I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

my heart did time in siberia

I've been wanting to write here but I got no chance of sitting in front of a computer up until now! Recently, on the day I was going back to UKM, I rediscovered the band that started me going. I've been a fan of theirs since I was a kid...I was only 10 at that time and actually they are the factor that I'm exposed to english music. Have any ideas as in who I'm talking about? Well, it's the...

BACKSTREET BOYS!!!

AND I'M NOT ASHAMED OF IT! Come to think of it, I've never been ashamed of the Backstreet Boys coz they're awesome...and mostly shaped part of who I am today. Yup I'm serious. And I still remembered what a bopper I was with my mates, Nadz and Nabila. Nadz was the most goofy one, she's obsessed with Kevin and Howie..yes she's greedy..and would dance along to "I want it that way" and "Larger Than Life". In front of my mum and aunt, mind you! And as for me, I was initially introduced to BSB (cehh) by Nabila...and she OWNED A.J! I loved A.J the most as I remembered, but what to do? He's Nabila's...so I choose Brian. Brian is such a cutey...but actually I liked A.J for his cool attitude. Well, Brian has the most amazing voice (tome, at the time) and in my opinion, he's the main reason why BSB's songs are such a big hit with gals...I mean, we can melt. I MELT hearing his voice...can break your heart too...haih...

To tell the truth, I never stopped loving them and being their biggest fan. But at this time, it's kinda hard to stand by something that is not in anymore. People mock you and call you teenyboppers. Truth is...I hate those generalizations. When I start discovering them again on youtube, I realized what I am in those days. I LOVED THEM! I'm OBSESSED! I kissed Brian every morning! I'm not lying, it's true. And when I heard he's getting married, my heart broke, and I cried. But over time, I learned to accept it and even typed out a wedding invitation for him and Leighanne...yup I still remembered his wife's name...and he had a baby called Baylee...man, those were the days. All the memories come flooding back to me.

The only thing that I'm mad about them is that they never do a full concert here...damn u guys! You did a full one at Singapore, but never came a little bit north to Malaysia? Damn..And I once wrote a letter to Brian, wishing him to get well soon after the surgery. And he never wrote back...so sad. I love you Brian...why didn't you write to me back? Huhuhu...

Nevertheless, I'll always be their biggest fan and will be there through thick or thin. Lets bring out the new album already! And it's official...Backstreet Boys are the biggest boyband of all time! BSB 4eva!

linkie of the day

I discovered this website for imnotokay. It is a very fun game...but you'll get extremely frustrated but you can't seem to let it be. You'll wanna beat the crap outta this game and that's why it is called THE IMPOSSIBLE QUIZ!!! Ha ha! Quoted as the hardest fuckin game on the face of earth...try it!

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/365143

home...is the feeling I buried in you

Yay I'm at home at last!!!

Apparently, Mikey's pics were too big for the friendster...So I don't know what to do about it.


TADAA! He's here! Mikey!!

savin' me

I'm about to upload Mikey's photos to friendster now. He's sooo cute!



Well, actually I don't quite know what to write...Today I'm basically in no mood to do anything. That means, I don't even feel like going to class anymore. I'm just too caught up in thinking about going home tomorrow. Hell yeah, tomorrow...sounds like it's very soon...but actually not. I have 5 hours of class starts from early tomorrow. Sounds just like a boredom asylum to me. And by early, I mean very! 8am!



Well, yeah, I can always skip class if I want to. But in this case, most likely not. Coz this week's classes are pretty important. For english class after this, I have to come coz maybe my lec will give us opinion writing test or something. Data Structure most definitely have to go, coz it's damn important. Tomorrows Computer Architecture, the lec might give us the assignment title and guidelines...maybe a pop quiz will pop outta nowhere. And next, Database lab is important as it will be added to final! Hoooooooooohh...lepak!

So i have no choice then. And my sony black beanybaby has been very awful since two days ago! Arrrrghh why must you buat pasal in my time in need?! It basically make it hard for me to switch between songs, to swich between mp3 mode and radio mode, and I can't even press the up and left button!!! What's wrong with you!



(black beanybaby is the nickname I use for my Sony Netwerk Walkman "bean" coz it looks like a bean and sooo cute. But the quality is a bit kooky nowadays and they won't produce it anymore. So sedih...)

Heya...I'm the fuckin' beanybaby!

ramble ramble

hey I'm at the computer lab in FTSM right now...bored outta my mind and will be more bored later in English class. I'm already running late...but don't matter coz the lecturer enters late too..

I've scanned Mikey's pic last Friday and I've been meaning to post my cat's pic over here and in Friendster but I forgot to bring my OTHER pendrive. I brought my lame pendrive instead and left the cool one at 'home'. So you'll have to wait...to see my cute kitty cat. ~love~

Erm I wanna ramble more, but time is short. I love to write in a rush coz I got such a rush doing it...okay byee...gotta go

Outing! Outta this hole!

Well, we tak jadi pegi jalan on next week, but we went yesterday! yeay!

We went makan, then circling around The Mines for two hours before going into the cinema to watch a movie. Which is "300"! 300 rocks, man! I thought it was crap when I watched the trailer, but man, was I wrong! Lalala I was overcome with joy and greatness. Too bad I don't quite like the ending tho...it could've been a happy one! Why why!! I love that guy! (ps not the king, ok. the other guy which is soooo hot!) Why must he have to die!

Considering I've never feel this way before when I watched any movie, please excuse me. This just means I fucking love this movie and I want you to watch it too!! yeah you! Support the Sparta!

Warning: There are many funny and physically incorrect creatures in this movie. You possibly won't like it, or will find it funny as hell. For me: It was funny as hell! Hahaha!

hmm...

My lappie is now on the way to recovery...but guess what? I'll have to wait a minimum of 3 weeks to get it done! Moreover, he said that it may take as long as 2 month! Hooooooo...I'm dying of boredom. I guess I'm going back to my Matrics lifestyle:

without laptop

without going back home everyweek

The latter is because this week I have mid-sem test on Friday. So it's not worth going back for just one day and one night! And I wanna go back on the next week, but Dee said that she will be having her new car next week and wanna ask me out then instead of this Friday. So I guess I won't be coming home next week too. I'll definitely miss my home computer!


I found this website www.erowid.org. Which talks about drugs and effects. I don't know why, but I enjoyed reading this stuff! I like it coz it's not like anything I've seen, coz it includes the users experiences and first times. Check it out if you like...poor me, I don't have a lappie to browse it in my room...hoooooooo. But don't be tempted...I'm tempted!

SellOut!!

Yeah yeah you you, I don't like your girlfriend!
No way no way, I think you need a new one!
Hey hey you you, I can be your girlfriend!

Whoa if you think that's my lines, think again! If you hadn't heard yet, that's Avril's new song. No I'm not kidding. It's way icky and yucky if you hear them. She has totally changed, she sold out. YEah, I've heard that she wanted her new album to be more gig worthy and all bout rockin' out, but this is just shitty! There's no rock AT ALL...it's just like bubblegums and cheerleaders...listen to it yourself! that is, if you dare...lol

Probs=Blogging

heya there bloggers! I'm back (say it like the terminator plzz)!

Where have I been? Well there's too much to put in here but lets just say that I an lazy and have the writer's block. I dunno what to blog about besides mundane things. I don't wanna bore the crap outta my readers, do I? So I prefer to sit quietly and not ramble unless I got something to say about. And I believe the time is now, coz I got a very troublesome problem in my hands right now...

My lappie is sick!! OMG my haven lappie has been acting strange lately. It is really really slow...I mean snails are faster than my laptop, I swear. I dunno why, maybe I'll take it to the store and try to get them fix it...coz I have the warrantee, maybe the service might be free? Bottomline is that I can't function without my laptop, or computers. I have lived through this whole week now, but with much difficulty. What with all these assignments!! I have to type all of them and now I can't coz my laptop is worse than the snail. I already did my database assignment by hand. Yea by hand!! I hope the lecturer is fine with that as I did it with as much care as I can possibly manage. Meaooow!

I going home (again) this afternoon and my dad is gonna pick me up earlier than he usually does, which is 2PM. My class ends on 1PM and I haven't packed my stuff yet. I hope I can get "home" in time. Have to wash all the bowls and glasses lagi...haih. lalalalalala...

Just so everyone know, it's not like I had to go home everyweek. I wanna stay here...but problem is, my hair is killing me! It's so uncomfortable! My hair has gotten longer and I just can't stand another week living with them. Moreover, this time of year, the El Nino. Hot hot hot! Just thinking about it makes me dread going to class and walking in the hot sun and my hot hair.

So I just wanna go home for this week and next week I won't be home, okay. And part of it is because I have exam on next friday, so...no going home for me next week.

As for my preferred hair cut, I want to get a short look. but most of the time I said that to the hairdresser, they always cut it like really short...like guys'. It didn't suit me at all coz I will look more round and my hair will get all fluffy and expand upwards. Yikes!

This is my hairstyle now. Seriously, don't laugh!

I want this kinda hair!

Maybe I should just print this pic of Gerard and show it to the hairdresser. Haha! I want his hair!